I exonerated myself... after I had broke the Nightmares Code... I just had to do it...
Here is my story... hear me out...
On orders from above, I had to relocate and set up a new camp. This required me to be dewinged for about month. While I was busy on the move, I hear news about the orders for the Squad Ops - Finland - the Colors of Fall that came in and how my squadmates had been leading the VVS into victory. I was just itching to jump into the cockpit and take the controls to join my squad.
Orders came for the final frame and we were to fly the La5FN. With the amount of flying time I was getting for the last month, I knew I was getting rusty... But I just had to fly. I jumped to send the message off saying to expect me to join in on the flight.
The time came for the mission to start. I sat infront of my newly configured controls and rushed to the MA to give it a test. I took up an La5FN on the Pizza, only to experience a CTD... "hmmm... this is encouraging..."
I restart my controls, and go to the SEA. I exchange the usual greetings and off we go... or so I thought, I ended up in a tree on take off being unfamiliar with the terrain. "Now this is really encouraging."
I start anew, escorting the Il2 flight from A9 and headed towards A5 and Leningrad. On the way, we hear of our comrades engaging the axis thugs. Reports were too hazy to draw a picture on how things were going.
Soon we received orders to refuel at A5. We lost one our comrades in the process... a sudden gust of wind caused a prop strike while landing... being familiar withe the terrain counts a lot it seems. As soon as the La5FNs were refueled, I reported to our CO that I was the last one out. This confused the command that all of the La5FNs were refueled... but in actuality, I meant that the Nightmares were all refueled but the La5FNs from the 68th were still refueling. (Sorry GD) The Il2s were half way to the primary target, the Lappeenranta Bridge, when we learned of this fact. GD recalled the strike and pulled back just enough for the rest of the La5FNs to catch up.
As soon as the La5FNs formed up over Lake Ladoga, the strike recommenced. Moments later, we were engaged with a group of Fw190s. In the process I finish off one Fw190, by taking off his wing.

Soon after, the primary target was reported hit. GD insisted on a confirmation as the reports were hazy and went in himself. I request to the flight commander to escort GD in and out, only to learn that the rest of the Nightmares where doing the same. "Ahh the Nightmares Code, makes me proud... going beyond the call of duty and never leave a man behind" We confirm that the bridge was hit and we escorted the Il2s out.
However, we were hit by numerous enemy planes, 109s and 190s. I see two of my squadmates being engaged below. I call out "50cals, Angoose, get out of there!" They were twisting and rolling while being outnumbered. I too was getting swamped by the enemy. "50, Angoose, we gotta get out, hit the deck now!" A 109 had the hots for me... however, I was not too fond of him and hit the deck, leaving 50cals and Angoose behind. "Damn, I broke the code..." The 109 had been firing on me and I needed an escape...

As I had feared, 50cals and Angoose were reported shot down, while I was narrowingly escaping enemy fire.
We returned to base at A5 to refuel and regroup. However, I soon found that I was only survivor in the La5FN flight. The Il2 flight had landed and relocated to A4 to start on a flight of Hurricanes to hit our secondary target, the Joensuu Supply Train. As soon as I started off from A5 to meet up with the Hurricanes, the airfield became swamped with enemy 109s. Luckily I was not spotted while making my way out.
I met up with our Hurricanes over Lake Ladoga. They were flying in low to gain time. I kept some distance and flew over them at 13k. In a distance I spot a group of dots, which started diving. Instinct told me that those were the enemy without being able to identify the dots. They turned out to be 109s. The La5FN being able to out accelerate the 109s, I played the bait to make them turn and feed them to our Hurricanes. I succeeded in making them hit the deck, however, the enemies were smart, they made sure to regain their E. They took us out one by one, but soon they were on their RTB.
We returned to A4. A quick assessment on the war showed that the VVS might be on the verge of losing the frame. This meant that the secondary target must be hit. However, we were out of time for the Hurricanes to go in. They ended flight at A4. I being in the La5FN was fast enough to make it in before the end of frame. Therefore, I was instructed to re-arm, refuel and hit the train by myself.

I flew in low. A dot appeared over A4, which caused a bit of worry. However, before he spotted me, he disappeared. I continued onto the intel location of the supply train. A third of a sector out, I climbed to 5K and started scoping for the train. The terrain made it difficult to spot the tracks and the train.
"GD, any intel on which way the track runs?"
"Unfortunately, no"
"Damn..."
"Good Luck"
"It took me 7mins to get here, I would have enough time to make it back."
"Roger, try and make it back alive. Beer will be waiting at the O'club"
"Right I will be looking forward to it... Damn, I can't seem to locate the tracks... is that it?"
"You can find it. Keep trying."
"Woh! *****! I am being shot at!! Tracers all around me! There it is! Right below! I am going in!"
I roll over, locate the tracks and the train, identified the direction it was travelling and dove towards it. Trains coming up, arm bombs. *bang* one hit from the acks. Should I pull back on my throttle? Terrain coming up, no time for that now. *bang* another hit from the acks.

(sorry for the no train. somehow the train did not load up on the playback of the film...)
"Bombs away!!" *bang* Pull up, pull up! My plane was not responding well. Did I lose my elevators? I pull on the up trims. Come on, come on! Pull up! "Damn it!!! I am not gonna make it!! aaaaahhhhhh..." Just before I scaped the ground, I hear the bombs explode. Numerous target destroyed messages came up followed by "You have crashed" message.
"ahhh damn, I died..."
"Dutchman I love you... You completely destroyed the second target, that puts us in absolute victory. I will have to drink your beer though."
"I wanted to make it back alive... Just put my beer on my grave... and give my wife a DFC for me... posthumous..."
The supply train at Joenssu was completely destroyed which put the VVS from marginal victory to strategic victory. Damn I wish, I made it back alive... then it would have been a better story... well, as for myself, I exonerated myself for leaving my squadmates to their deaths earlier...