Muck,
Try to remember this, you need to have a life of adventure or you will end up having lead a life of nothing
Helen Keller once said that security in life is an illusion, and "Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all."
Live the daring adventure.
If and when you learn to fly, you will learn how safe it can be when a person does not act recklessly. Too many times peoples impressions are formed by television drama and not real life. On the basic small airplane, the engine can quit and the plane will stay very controllable and can in almost every case be glided down to a safe landing with no problem.
Not to minimize the risks, there are risks to flying as there are too everything, but after a little experience pilots normally become very comfortable flying.
If you don't, then it just isn't for you, truthfully, flying isn't for everyone. Hell, I dont like to be on boats in deep water, thats just me.
So, try it again, if you like it, great. If not, at least take credit for having tried.
good luck
dago