And it's a strange thing to admit, at parties (for example) just after you were chatting with strangers about the strange and overwhelming primal rush of breaking something with your bare hands, or surfing down a daunting slope of snow for the first time, or racing a 700hp car for the first time, etc etc. It's also why I love math and techno music. You're thinking OMG math is gibberish and techno is trashy cheap computerized crap, but the two have the same quality that makes classical music a construct that's so impervious to erosion, that's timelessly appealing: "the long, long line" of musical syntax.
http://www.ted.com/talks/view/id/286Once you see that syntax in math, in musical sentences like you find in the top 5% of quality electro music (as opposed to the rest of the ultra-repetitive and unimaginative electronic music (and a lot of other unimaginative and/or repetitive music of all genres) and provided you have the patience and memory to listen thru entire tracks' "stories" and suspend your disbelief at the weird phonetics) in algorithms and other patterns artificial and natural, etc, you never go back. You start seeing those crazy, and often enough, beautiful patterns in the most random places, and everything gets a lot more interesting and inspiring.