Why don't you want to die?

[druski85]

I've been to enough funerals to understand how difficult it is for those who remain.  That, and I'm having a pretty good time at the moment...   

[Rino]

     In 2006. according to the doctors I came within about an hour of checking out.  I was in a diabetic coma and
fortunately my parents got concerned when I didn't answer my phone or emails.  They drove 1.5 hours and somehow
managed to rouse me enough that I could unlock my apartment door.

     I don't remember the ambulance ride to the hospital, and I didn't feel any pain.  The biggest regret I would have
had was not being able to say goodbye to my family, or tell them how I felt about them.

     Over the past few years I've had some pretty hard knocks and spent alot of time in hospitals.  I truly appreciate
my friends and family and try to let them know as often as I can.

     We never know how long life will be, so don't sweat the small stuff.  Try to remember that the next time you are
getting ready to pop a blood vessel while playing AH 

[MrBill]

Why don't you want to die?

Sex, Bacon and Chocolate are pretty high on the list.

[tassos]

I came close about 15 years ago, and I wouldn't of know any difference.  Mom said she's afraid she might miss something important.

Rash

Die? No way
-1992 I was woked up in my WV Camper from over 20 Nazi Skinheads near Saulgau Germany..
-1997 I HO crashed with my 1988 Le Baron HO with a 7,5t truck
before 3 yeahrs at the Check my Doc Say ed " You have Bloodcancer you don't have long to live" my work college say ed"You Doc is Stupid if you are over 40 you don't have a Dirty crap in you're veins instead of Blood"
-yesterday at the Supermarket someone parked beside me with Big Letters " JESUS IAM COMMING SOON TO YOU"
I grabbed my kids and throw in car and drove fast way....

[B-17]

i culdnt care less if i died tomorrow. not at all. no problem with that. but before that, i at least want to be able to pull off some really big thing people will remember me for. thats all. maybe i dont mind dying because of the fact that my dad is a funeral director...? make any sense? i pipe at funerals too, so dead people dont freak me out. unless they start walking of course.

[VonMessa]

Why don't you want to die?

Sex, Bacon and Chocolate are pretty high on the list.

Well, perhaps not in that order.

You will be able to enjoy the bacon and chocolate long after your little soldier loses his ability to salute. 

Besides, bacon and chocolate do not have opinions   

[Latrobe]

There was a point where I stood on the edge both literally and figuratively. Nothing to live for. That's changed. Now I'm married and have two sons. I don't want to die now and miss them growing up, nor do I want them to grow up without a Father or leave my wife alone. Other than that I've very little to live for, having lost all my ambitions and dreams or more accurately gave them up after stopping fooling myself.

I don't believe in life after death. You just go blank, it was going under general anaesthetic in hospital that convinced me of that. One microsecond I was aware before the operation, the next I was awake hours later. No transition at all. Death must be similar. But I will live on in my sons who already have demonstrated they are essentially chips off the old block, sadly for them

It's nice to think your consciousness lives on but I fear it doesn't. So death is to be postponed as long as possible.

I know how you must have felt. I too was at that point where I had no reason to live. I was never sure why I even woke up each morning to live another day of hating everything, not wanting to do anything other than ending it. It's tough on you both mentally and physically. Then just like you, I found something I enjoyed and it gave me a reason to live on. I have never been more happy today than I have ever been in my life. I refuse to die before I am able to repay that which has saved my life. Big  to those who can stand at the edge and be able to turn around, and those who helped those people.

[guncrasher]

looking at 20 dead gook civilians,

"the dead know only one thing, it's better to be alive."

The joker, full metal jacket.

me personally, i can always die tomorrow but today I want to live.  I have attempted suicide many times, actually the only thing I was pretty good in life is sucking at not killing myself.  Then i found out I have a mental disease.  I am not a looney, at least I dont think so, but when the mood changes hit me, that's when I start thinking harder that life is not too bad after all and that I should live a little longer after all I can always live today and die tomorrow, but I cant die today and live tomorrow.

If you start questioning yourself if why you should be alive, then you should get help to figure out why you feel that way.  I did, and it changed the way I look at life.

semp

[gyrene81]

the things ya learn around here...    

[dedalos]

I don;t because I am not sure if I would like being dead.  If I don;t like it, I won't be able to change my my mind so I ll try to stick around until I know for sure 

[SlapShot]

i dont want to die. i came very close 1 year ago when i got lost in the mohaje for a few days. id rather not talk about it but it was definately one of the worst time in my life so far.

I had to have CPR done after I drowned in the pool a the YMCA, me not being able to swim plus the pool being full of kids, I got kicked to the bottom but one of the people watching saw me at the bottom and rescued me. I was 8 but hell I still remember it.

You guys are really a pair of bookends.

[VonMessa]

You guys are really a pair of bookends.

Was that the filter talking, or did you really use the word bookends?

 

[dedalos]

Was that the filter talking, or did you really use the word bookends?

 

Don't make fun of him.  He is old!  That was a cool word when he was in high school 

[VonMessa]

 

[Penguin]

penguin, you need to get a life boy...i see a lot of misguided angst and possible self pity brought on by a sheltered life...get out and live a little, and don't use your parents as an excuse.



to the op, it's great that you squeakers somewhat have some self understanding but, you're not alone...if you could get your peers to drop their b.s. macho act long enough to actually speak intelligently, you would find that out...perhaps one day you will understand it's that fear that keeps you from doing stupid things...it's when you no longer have that fear that you need to make sure your life insurance is paid up.

I have no self pity or angst, and I don't blame my parents at all.   If it came out that way I didn't mean it, I'm glad that I can think and speak like I do.   Yes, part of it comes from not getting out much, but there are so many ideas inside my head that I don't really have much interest in conversation; it bores me.

-Penguin