<S> greens, sorry for your loss. Thankfully I haven't lost anyone close to me, but my grandfather has been having heart problems, and had a scare with a heart-attack this past summer. Scared the crap out of me, as it wasn't untill then that truely I realized he won't be around forever. I mean I knew this intelectually, but untill something serious happens, you don't really KNOW it in your heart.
I guess I'm just approaching the age when life stops giving, and starts taking away.