This is my attempt at a SAD appology of sorts for my
grouchy behaviour during the last few weeks. I recently read a good post by my friend Shifty that struck home with me. It reminded me that whatever outcome of the encounters of this game, they are meant to be fun or at least entertainment only (not the measure of self worth). Yet, there are some who it just doesn't seem fair to play against, and expressing that feeling over vox, has lowered my vision of the person that I
wish to be. If I felt, that at least, I was learning or gaining a better understanding (improving), maybe my emotions would not overcome my reasoning so easily.
Yes, I had thought about just dialing back my participation, and even letting my account close. Those decisions I have decided are still options, but I fear will only postpone these very same feelings as I inevitably return to this wonderful game (yes, the game is addictive). Instead, I hope that an honest appology to any that may have heard my tirades or any that I may have slandered during them, along with a promise not to take my own "skills" (or rather lack of) so seriously. I hope this will again help me to continue to find many good buds from around the world and enjoy being the best bud, wingman, or foe that I can possibly be and share with them their due respect.
On a weird note. I have found that my choice to detune 200 previous to my bad behavior, has seemed to have the reverse effect as expected. Although, I detuned 200 to prevent from mistakenly spilling country information (I type quite a bit and sometimes use the wrong slash bar command = 200), I have kept it muted as a matter of convenience. I feel that previously, the salutes and cross country comments after heavy battles, was more of a release of any ill feelings (poor looser emotions) that may have otherwise built up. In fact, many good laughs have been had at my own expense, and that I say is what I would rather be known for.
And yet another appology, forgive me for the "look at me" post.
