*Twitch*
Any ways. Look. Its very simple for me to understand, and no one else seems to. Thats why its so freaking irritating to see others just not get it.
I know people arent always interested in what every one else wants to call the 'best' game. But I also know that people do want to get the most from an experiance, its human nature. I know what HTC must have gone through when they started up, I know they must have finacial problems, I know they must work very hard. Ive been there and done that, and made alot of stupid mistakes that didnt get wonderful dream (laugh) out to the public. Now I see them hitting pitfalls and problems down the line if they want to pursue other types of games or ventures, and I seem them hitting pitfalls with the game theyre currently working on. Alot (if not all) of my older posts were much quieter and sedate and well thought out, but as time progresses and people dont hear what im saying (infact misquote it directly) I start getting alittle peeved. So I post a few things here and there trying to once agian appeal to reason and get flammed or insulted by a bunch of wanks ive never met and who have never met me. That gets to me every time, and I go on and on ranting trying to annoy them as much as possible. (See there I go agian, I think I just lost every one, anyways) And yes to those of you who commented on the strong thoughts/beliefs, I have them and I hold them very dear. Id happily kick someones head in who tried to tell me it was stupid to be idealistic (and I have too, Zoom in on my lengthy police report...touche'?) and that my thoughts or views were invalid just becuase they didnt agree with them. They dont have to agree, I really dont care, I dont agree with most people myself, but I dont go around flamming thier ideas (just thier life styles, its easier to yell at a group than an individual) at this point I really dont give a hoot about the game, or the company or even the longevity of its existence. I just want people to understand that I, (enter name, state, and photo copied self identity) am perfectly sane, though easily angered and very defensive, and will fight to the death (in a shakespearian sort of way...uhh? right. Cue to the merrymen in the forest still running from the Sheriff) when my views and ideals are brought forth and put on trial. I can also understand its hard for you all to follow me, and probally hard to interput all the mindless drivel *cough cough* that flows throughout the whole of the message (any one actually finish the Fountainhead? What are the last 20 pages like? It got boring.) But really it just is that, that being mindless drivel that flows throughout the whole of the message. See...there it was, did yah miss it? Probally. Any ways. Im perfectly sane *cough pyro cough* and dont need psychiatric help or anything like that. I just wanted to you all to see my point of view, and accept it (wether or not you agreed was up to you) and learn something, when I got flammed endlessly I got really really upset over it (anger management class here I come) and reverted to my own 'blue mohawk' days, and started 'kicking in every direction' as a defensive measure as to try and save some personal face (sorry I couldnt care less what you all think of me, only what I think of me, which at this momment isnt a whole helluva lot reading over my posts) So in the end (cut to it damn you, now now) Yes yes...I will. So hush up Fal-N (its actually Sid by choice, or Thomas by birth) Anyways I apologize, it might not mean anything to any one, but I do. Ill try and make it so you hear the least amount from me over the next 4-5 months, give you a chance to forget. Ill probally be paying for aceshigh (with a different handle to avoid annoyance) as ive been flying lately with a different handle (saved a few of your arses too
*cough JelloB-aifra cough* Anyway. Bye now.
Sidney S. Atkins
Fallen@smashedupsanity.com
PS. Chisel, probally seen you at one of his many spoken words then. I like most if not all of what he has to say, always have, has my full admiration. And who cares about hardcore
Its all crap nowadays any now.
[This message has been edited by Fallen (edited 01-30-2000).]