Enter at your own risk guys. I wrote this poem Monday night when I couldn't sleep because of the medications they gave me. I went to the doctor the next day and he tripped out on what they had given me and the size of the daily dosage. I can still feel the Depekote in me, but I'm not sick. I think I have a fever though because my skin feels REAL HOT.
I guess a lot of the irony is personal, but I don't mind sharing it here if you dudes have any questions. I remember writing it, but don't rememeber thinking about it at the time nor did I remember what it was about until I read it last night.
Scary Night
it's one o'clock and I can't get to sleep I think my brain is in to deep all the years of
pain unable to weep have taken my sanity deep from in side of me? some times it's so
clear to live life to the fullest but has potential wasted in me to the point of insanity?
I saught out some help that I thought might be good but I mistreated it now because
of it I can't even sleep a bit. somethings not right up under my hood? have I said
something here that you have understood? all I want is what's normal for any one.
don't have no smoking gun, I'm not on the run, I just want to have some fun.
right now I'm not feeling straight, almost like I have no fate.
I'm speeding inside like there's something that's trying to hide. oh why must I take
this ride? have to maintain control don't want to lose my soul. but times they
are not so clear and I feel like im all a lone in here. the shrink said I'm ok then sent
me to the med line. is depekote my antedote or did it or is it why I write this note?
could this be a flashback I don't think I've ever had one. did I do this to me? i'd really
like a nap can't somebody buy me one? what will become of my sanity? my pupils are quite
to large for a man who says he's in charge. my faculties still inside of these my own two
hands. but my blood does surge. yet I have no urge but to get some sleep so that I can
work when the morning comes. because it must be done just to stay on top and avoid the gun.
