Don't feel bad Estes.
I take a crap load of pills every day.
I cam em My anti stunninghunk pillsLOL.
Bi-Polar really sux most people just don't get it.
They say oh chear up or oh pipe down LOL.
hey once they get you're meds worked out everything will be cool.
Heck one of my meds Made me loose 30lbs
Just take my advice STAY on you're MEDS!!
I tried going off mine once and it was not pretty.
Let me know if theres anything I can do to help ya man.
I have been where you are at and got the t-shirt lol.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE:aok