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Title: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 10, 2013, 07:07:47 PM
when we met
I was a lost soul
Anger and Hatred is all that I sowed
you needed to be held tight
not hurt and rejected
Sadly my Anger
Was not what you expected
You saw through the Rage that possessed my being
The Love you gave me
was the first I was seeing
I was kidnapped... beaten..... and imprisoned
at such a young age
living a life full of anger and Rage
You also had a past
similar to mine
we are two pees in a pod destined to last
I know I hurt you
and brought you pain
I am so sorry dear
I knew no other
but I do take the blame
I know it took a long time for me to see
How precious a gift you are to me
So many have judged me
Yet none can say
They would have survived
or been any other way
You on the other hand
Saw me for what I could be
I thank you for that love
You bestowed upon me
I will Love and Hold you
Cherish and protect you
Listen and Honor you
Show you Your Love is all I need
I am the man you saw those 20 years ago
Look beyond the pain and you will see
my love has grown exponentially
Say it is not to late
for us to be
what Yahaveh has destined for you and me.

written by me for Stacey

from my heart

sadly it is to late

jump for joy all you haters

Stacey and I are no more
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 10, 2013, 09:32:35 PM
man I thought that would bring out the haters

I must be on "ignore"


that was the first thing I ever wrote in that manner...I know its not great but it speaks my heart.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: skorpx1 on May 10, 2013, 09:40:10 PM
That gave me a case of the feels.

If that whole thing was true, may I ask who Stacey is?

(http://media.tumblr.com/f2a7bf22bc7228381063228a65a18b4a/tumblr_inline_mghlyfZDZz1r3vz25.gif)

Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 10, 2013, 09:43:18 PM
That gave me a case of the feels.

If that whole thing was true, may I ask who Stacey is?

(http://media.tumblr.com/f2a7bf22bc7228381063228a65a18b4a/tumblr_inline_mghlyfZDZz1r3vz25.gif)



if it is true......


it most certainly is, every word of it.

Stacey is my wife of 20 years and mothered 6 of my kids.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: smoe on May 10, 2013, 09:47:38 PM
That was nice ink, sorry about the loss.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: skorpx1 on May 10, 2013, 09:49:57 PM
if it is true......


it most certainly is, every word of it.

Stacey is my wife of 20 years and mothered 6 of my kids.


I see. That's some deep, dark stuff you have there.

I'd say "I know what it's like" but in all honesty, nobody will know what it's like for you. You deal with it in your own way and you are the only one that knows what its like.


Sorry to know about what you've lost.  :salute
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 10, 2013, 09:53:16 PM

I see. That's some deep, dark stuff you have there.

I'd say "I know what it's like" but in all honesty, nobody will know what it's like for you. You deal with it in your own way and you are the only one that knows what its like.


Sorry to know about what you've lost.  :salute

Thank you, smart words from a youth :salute

That was nice ink, sorry about the loss.

thank you :salute
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: beau32 on May 10, 2013, 11:14:00 PM
Real Deep Ink. Sorry about the loss. We are all here if you need someone to talk too......
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: Zacherof on May 10, 2013, 11:21:22 PM
Not trolling, or flaming or
baiting,
but ink, as
a
fellow
artist, emotional paintings/drawings help
(kinda helped when I dealt with a
cheating bi@tch)


And you'll get through it :aok
stay positive man :salute
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 11, 2013, 12:58:48 AM
 :salute

I am good believe it or not....nothing smashed in the house :rock
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: AAJagerX on May 11, 2013, 02:51:44 AM
:salute

I am good believe it or not....nothing smashed in the house :rock

Just keep positive bro.  You two have a lot of history, and that goes a long way.  Don't overwhelm her.  Just let her know that you're still there, and continue to be the best that you can be.  I'm betting that you two will figure things out. 

Best wishes and prayers for you and yours my friend.

 :salute
Jager
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 11, 2013, 04:09:43 AM
Leaving Sunday to go to Maine...

Honestly I haven't felt this good in a long time.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: HL117 on May 11, 2013, 10:01:18 PM
Ink make sure she sees what you wrote...............
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: gpwurzel on May 11, 2013, 10:22:41 PM
Sorry to hear Ink - around if you need me brother.

Wurz
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: jimson on May 12, 2013, 02:41:49 AM
Only a true azzhat would find pleasure in your loss.

I hope things work out for you man.

Pees in a pod should be spelled "peas" though the content makes up for that little typo.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: guncrasher on May 12, 2013, 05:23:25 AM
sorry to hear about that ink.  i am walking away from my gf of 12 years.  I know how you feel, actually I dont but I do understand.

to better days  :salute.



semp
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 12, 2013, 01:55:49 PM
Only a true azzhat would find pleasure in your loss.

I hope things work out for you man.

Pees in a pod should be spelled "peas" though the content makes up for that little typo.

 

 if not for spell check....it would look like this....
cea i Kan speel varry gud.











 :D

semp take care man
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: SilverZ06 on May 12, 2013, 02:48:50 PM
I am sorry for your loss INK (unless of course you actually are happy, in that case congrats  :cheers:). Enjoy your time in Maine. Such a beautiful state. I love it up there.   :rock
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ebfd11 on May 12, 2013, 04:58:52 PM
Ink sorry for the loss and I do know what it is like... been there done that got the shirt....and all I can say is ...1 day at a time and it slowly gets better. Just remember the kids come first.   :salute

Btw the next time I'm in NH I need you to get me totally watermelon faced ..

LawnDart
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: TOMCAT21 on May 12, 2013, 05:48:52 PM
sorry to hear ink... :salute
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 13, 2013, 03:39:43 PM
 :salute guys thanx

the absence from my family is the worst thing that I have ever felt.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: Devil 505 on May 13, 2013, 04:15:32 PM
Best of luck to you and your kids. Divorce is terrible strain.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: GScholz on May 13, 2013, 04:23:25 PM
Sorry to hear about your relationship problems. I hope for a happy resolution.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 14, 2013, 01:27:10 PM
 :salute :salute

you can all call me stupid.....here I am living in my past....not seeing what I have in front of me.....


guys I am back home...I lasted 2 days away...guess what greets me........one of the biggest smiles I have seen on my wife in a long time.


time to put away my negativity...my doubts...my hurt.....my pain....

thanx for the words guys.... :salute

Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: maddafinga on May 14, 2013, 02:06:18 PM
Excellent man, sometimes it takes a bit of a reset to get the reality check that everybody needs.  No matter what, hang in there though.  Glad to hear the outcome was good.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: SilverZ06 on May 14, 2013, 02:19:48 PM
That is great news ink.  I am very happy for you.  :salute  :cheers:
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: Triton28 on May 14, 2013, 02:21:53 PM
 :rock

Glad to hear things have smoothed out for ya bro.   :aok  G'luck with the personal stuff in the future.  Sometimes it's a wild ride.  :old: 

Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 14, 2013, 03:29:15 PM
:rock

Glad to hear things have smoothed out for ya bro.   :aok  G'luck with the personal stuff in the future.  Sometimes it's a wild ride.  :old: 



the whole life has been a wild ride....time for some smooth sailing :pray



 :salute

thanx guys
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: 68ZooM on May 14, 2013, 04:49:38 PM
Paul find someone to watch the kids for the weekend and you and momma go get some alone time to find each others souls and let them melt into one..... Congrats on coming home...
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: skorpx1 on May 14, 2013, 04:58:06 PM
:salute :salute

you can all call me stupid.....here I am living in my past....not seeing what I have in front of me.....


guys I am back home...I lasted 2 days away...guess what greets me........one of the biggest smiles I have seen on my wife in a long time.


time to put away my negativity...my doubts...my hurt.....my pain....

thanx for the words guys.... :salute




Good to hear that you haven't vilified your relationship with your wife.


Keep strong and get back into reality. Your ride isn't over yet.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: Fish42 on May 14, 2013, 08:03:56 PM
the whole life has been a wild ride....time for some smooth sailing :pray



 :salute

thanx guys

Its the rough stuff that makes you appreciate the smooth sailing more. Glad it got back on track for you.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 14, 2013, 10:34:45 PM
great day so far, asked her to renew our vows...she said yes.

there are no appropriate emoticons on how I feel....yet even now the negative thoughts are attacking.


<S> guys

Thanx
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: AAJagerX on May 14, 2013, 10:58:17 PM
There ya go buddy!  Glad to hear you two are working stuff out.   :rock
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: Butcher on May 14, 2013, 11:06:07 PM
was fun seeing Ink on facebook drunk to boot, terrible situation though man - ya live life and learn.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: Stampf on May 14, 2013, 11:09:13 PM
great day so far, asked her to renew our vows...she said yes.

there are no appropriate emoticons on how I feel....yet even now the negative thoughts are attacking.


<S> guys

Thanx

Call me bro...I am a sponge for negativity tonight...

Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 15, 2013, 01:19:46 PM
was fun seeing Ink on facebook drunk to boot, terrible situation though man - ya live life and learn.


man I was hammered..... :O been like 18 years....I am proud of my self...nothing got broke :rock



Call me bro...I am a sponge for negativity tonight...



I am putting all my effort into getting rid of them....my ignoring them....ive never done that before....

I have also decided, I am gonna open a church somewhere in NH.....it is called "The Church of YAH"  you wont see any crosses or anything that is pagan...... a stone building nothing fancy worship/teaching will be held on Saturday's and no plate will be going around....but you can most certainly bring your own bud.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: Slate on May 15, 2013, 02:02:43 PM

    My Neice was having trouble with her relationship with her Husband and 2 kids. She was always out with the girls and didn't want to be home, she wanted to be single again.
    Well the last 3 weeks she was in the hospital and her heart stopped several times and she was near death at 27 years old. (She had a pacemaker that was put in when she was young) She survived somehow and is now home and tearfully happy she has her family again.
    Funny how we can be shocked back into reality.

   Perhaps this is what you both needed now to see what's really important. Not all the BS of life but the goodness and beauty of life.
  Emotions are the mind killer and if i was not in control of mine I would not be married now.  :cool:
           

   
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: BluBerry on May 15, 2013, 02:29:16 PM
I'm happy things are looking up for you.  :salute
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: Lab Rat 3947 on May 15, 2013, 03:10:01 PM
Would you and I with Fate conspire
to grasp this sorry Scheme of Things entire
would we not shatter it to bits
and remold it nearer to the heart's desire

The Rubiyat of Omar Khayam


I wish both you all the best on the rest of journey through life


LtngRydr
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 15, 2013, 04:51:48 PM
    My Neice was having trouble with her relationship with her Husband and 2 kids. She was always out with the girls and didn't want to be home, she wanted to be single again.
    Well the last 3 weeks she was in the hospital and her heart stopped several times and she was near death at 27 years old. (She had a pacemaker that was put in when she was young) She survived somehow and is now home and tearfully happy she has her family again.
    Funny how we can be shocked back into reality.

   Perhaps this is what you both needed now to see what's really important. Not all the BS of life but the goodness and beauty of life.
  Emotions are the mind killer and if i was not in control of mine I would not be married now.  :cool:
           

   

 :salute

Would you and I with Fate conspire
to grasp this sorry Scheme of Things entire
would we not shatter it to bits
and remold it nearer to the heart's desire

The Rubiyat of Omar Khayam


I wish both you all the best on the rest of journey through life


LtngRydr

fitting poem
 :salute

Thanx Bluberry :salute
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: Shuffler on May 15, 2013, 08:36:28 PM
Ink I have not been coming on the boards a lot lately. I'm sorry to hear of the split.

I hope things will be looking up for you and you get to visit the kids a lot.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: mthrockmor on May 15, 2013, 08:44:46 PM
A great book that helped my marriage is "The Five Love Languages." It is less about mushy love and more about communication and understanding what speaks to your other half.

As an example, my wife's love language is service. If I buy her gifts, take her on trips, compliment her, etc she is whatever. If I do the dishes, laundry, get the girls to bed, etc she hears a different statement. It means more to her than anything. Some people need to have words of affirmation, or compliments and all the nice gestures, etc mean nothing. There are five such ways to communicate with people.

I would suggest getting a copy for $15 and reading it with her. Women are a mystery in general. This book really helped!

Boo
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: Shuffler on May 15, 2013, 08:46:56 PM
A great book that helped my marriage is "The Five Love Languages." It is less about mushy love and more about communication and understanding what speaks to your other half.

As an example, my wife's love language is service. If I buy her gifts, take her on trips, compliment her, etc she is whatever. If I do the dishes, laundry, get the girls to bed, etc she hears a different statement. It means more to her than anything. Some people need to have words of affirmation, or compliments and all the nice gestures, etc mean nothing. There are five such ways to communicate with people.

I would suggest getting a copy for $15 and reading it with her. Women are a mystery in general. This book really helped!

Boo

It is strange how we people are like animals. We all need something different. The job is to figure out what. There is not necessarily a right or wrong.
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 15, 2013, 09:06:37 PM
Shuff....my wife and I are workin on it....I am truly blessed to have this woman. :pray

A great book that helped my marriage is "The Five Love Languages." It is less about mushy love and more about communication and understanding what speaks to your other half.

As an example, my wife's love language is service. If I buy her gifts, take her on trips, compliment her, etc she is whatever. If I do the dishes, laundry, get the girls to bed, etc she hears a different statement. It means more to her than anything. Some people need to have words of affirmation, or compliments and all the nice gestures, etc mean nothing. There are five such ways to communicate with people.

I would suggest getting a copy for $15 and reading it with her. Women are a mystery in general. This book really helped!

Boo

sounds interesting....Stacey needs the love...the emotion...being heard....ive done that, but also....not enough.

something I cant forget again
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: zack1234 on May 16, 2013, 12:38:11 AM
I love you Ink only in a manly way :)

I have a cure for negative thoughts its called "Lego" :)

Play-doe is also good, i like the smell to be honest :)
Title: Re: a bit of ink
Post by: ink on May 16, 2013, 09:50:13 AM
I love you Ink only in a manly way :)

I have a cure for negative thoughts its called "Lego" :)

Play-doe is also good, i like the smell to be honest :)


 :rofl

 :salute