Originally posted by Lizking
I certainly hope I haven't been one that caused you to consider leaving. I have nothing but respect for you, such respect that I feel I can ask you hard questions, and you will discuss them on their merits, or lack there-of. If any of my posts were out of line, I apologize outright.
I do not think this is the case, but text can be misleading so I want you to be sure.
Hi Lizking,
Thanks for the reply. No, you certainly aren't the reason I've considered leaving. And you, and indeed anyone else, should feel free to ask anything you want. I really do have a relatively thick skin, and the day I stop being willing to
"give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have... with gentleness and respect" is the day I should also quit the pastorate for good.
I guess there were two reasons I'd considered moving on. The first was the occasional manifestation of a visceral and, to my mind, unreasoning hatred of Christians in general and the church in particular. To be lumped in the same catagory with people who saw off heads and blow up busses can be galling, especially because no one I ever met or read whom I consider to be a brother or sister in Christ has ever advocated anything even remotely like this - quite the opposite in fact. It also has struck me as unjustified given the behavior and writing of the individuals on these boards who have identified themselves as evangelicals, which, not including me I have felt to be respectful, temperate, and reasonable. Please understand, I don't mind answering questions that are pointed or tough, dealing with direct challenges to me or my faith, but how does one answer a stream of invective?
The second reason is that on occasion I get worried about my own replies and the general tenor of my posting. I'm a sinful man, and it would be really easy for me to simply slip into "lets dish it out" mode. I really don't want to be abrasive, or meanspirited, prideful, or angry in my replies, and on more than one occasion I've had erase a post because I've realized I'm going after the man instead of his argument. The Ad Hominem abusive is the easiest and most popular line of argumentation (online especially), but I really don't want to end up adopting it. In short, fear of becoming an online brawler ahs occasionally lead me to ask "should I step out?"
So in the end Liz it has had more to do with knowing my own susceptibility to temptation than what anyone in particular has said.
- SEAGOON