I was a soldier in battle in a previous life. I have killed and been killed with utmost savagry.....I know the face of war.... I know the smell of burnt flesh, the feeling of hell rapidly rushing towards me, these things I know.....
In my dreams I have saved and been saved, felt the heroes gratitude and the cowards disgrace. I know the feeling of rushing forward towards the enemy, under heavy and accurate fire....I know the feeling of running in absolute terror away from my enemy with weapons thrown clear for a miniscule advantage in speed.....
I am a student of war. I study it and imagine it for reasons that are simply beyond me.
And Yes, if I ever saw one of my officers kill another one of my men while under fire, in a cowards fetal position, or repulsed in horror by a suicidal order then that soldier, that officer would aquire the value of the enemy in my sights and be eliminated.
There are simply some actions that are beyond the realm......
If I understand correctly Hangtime, you are a survivor of war. I admire you if it is so and yet I would also be saddened by your experience in war, for I know in my dreams that in the way war makes the human spirit more intense, the way war makes the life experience far more profound, war equally degrades the soul and deeply wounds the center of love in our hearts.
God bless you and protect you.