it's pretty short sighted to think our argument ever had anything to do with 'a video game'. look closely and you'll see the real reason. people don't fight over pixels they fight over ego fulfillment(on both sides - that's not a veiled jab). silly? pointless? unproductive? "disturbing"? most definitely. but video game related? - no. it's a community issue, nothing technology can address.
admitedly, it started with me getting sick of urchin's posts and instead of internalizing it or just ignoring it (the productive route),i made the mistake of posting which is really just emulating the very behavior i am accusing urchin of or possibly even taking it a step further.
i don't know where you live draken, but where i live you had better not let anyone tell you to shut up. i've spent a lot of time around 'wanna be' neighborood dictators and bullies in my years and if you let them dog you once they will all the time.
it is conditioned as a defense mechanism and pops up at the worst of times. it belongs in an alley not on a bbs full of harmless computer geeks.
i should be beyond that by now, granted. it's more of a reflex at this point and way unnecessary for the situation i was presented with. it's just my experience that it is better to face all your detractors and people who appear to be trying to place you in some ridiculous pecking order and risk taking your knocks rather than let someone try to disrespect you. i have plenty of scars and healed bones to remind me of the risks but i sleep like a baby knowing i'm no one's lackey and can ht the street every day owned by no one.
i hope that makes sense but it's not offered as an excuse just an explanation and as a case study in overreaction for all the sigmud freud fans out there
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i'll take the blame for my part and offer my humble and sincere apologies to the AH community if for nothing else than creating a downer situation.
pompous people (or people i perceive as pompous in case i am mistaken) set me off like no other event. ego fixation accounts for a lot of the world's ills imo and i see it in every bush sometimes because i might be looking for it a bit too hard. i think losing graciously is a quality of strength and something i have had to work at (and i mean hard my brothers...) personally and still fail at
often.
99% of the time if i taunt someone like i did urchin, it is intended to spur introspection and my hopes are that the person will see they are being silly. that type of taunting produces that effect in me but it is a false assumption to think it will in everyone. it sounds mean and probably is but as a mitigation the bad intent isnt there.
it's not my place though really is it? (no need to answer - that's a rhetorical question btw for those of you reaching to quote and slam me) - i will leave it to fate to decide from now on and if the person is off base, karma will kick in anyway and if they are right after all then time will tell that too ...
now....i do find it hypocritical in a way that so many of you are so disdained by our disagreement and behaviors and condemn it as being unfit for further discussion yet you continue the affair by voicing your opinions and condemnations. in a way your are extending this whole stupid affair.
can't you see urchin and i have let it go?! maybe you all should do the same and go kill stuff. i can't speak for urchin but i hear your objections loud and clear.
besides.... if you need get it off your chest with me, i am not hard to find if you look for the lowest, slowest 109 in the ma - the one with the wing missing, the engine throwing 2 types of smoke, no aileron and the 6 cons on his ass. <S>
