Strike eagle.....
I read 1st 2 paragraphs and no more.
Free masons would be your first clue. Then look how it starts.Something like,I was raised to be a zionist,thinking Israel can do no wrong... Israel doesnt teach that... If you are young and you run into something on internet that shakes you up some on important things,dont come in here to find out or ask. Go to an adult you trust first. Dad ,mom rabbi,minster,i dont know someone. In truth you do not know anyone in here ,and there are some bad ombrias in here, as most anywhere. Anyway your chances of being told the truth is by someone that loves you or you trust. just advice take it or leave it......good luck