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Offline Furball

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« Reply #150 on: September 25, 2005, 09:26:46 AM »
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It hurts to no end.  I walk into my backyard and I can almost see her in the pool. "How am I doing Uncle Freddy?" "Look I'm swimming Uncle Freddy!!"  "Jumpin like a frog!!!"  Man her voice echos in my mind.  I get into the pool and I can still feel her on my back. Going to the deep end and asking her if she's afraid I'll turn back and her say go, go I'm not afraid... I'd hang near the edge just in case.  She was brave, smart and comical.

I remember once I had to have a talk with her, Kim was at wits end because Amanda and Tessa were always argueing over lil chit.. This was just a talking, not a scolding...we're driving in my car and I asked her why the argueing all the time. She said because Amanda thinks she knows everything and I can make her mad and when Amanda gets made her face goes like this " "... I laffed my assss off.  I finally convinced her to ease up on Amanda...That was our promise... still it was great to see her make that face.

I miss her so deeply.

mac


that is so sad.  i am so sorry for you and your family.

i recently became an uncle and i cant imagine how much that hurts. :(
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« Reply #151 on: May 04, 2006, 08:15:31 PM »
Parole has been denied once. Now he is trying to petition the Judge to allwow him to spend the last 6 Months in a Halfway house.  He gets out this September.  A small incarceration for a death of a lil girl.

Seems like a good time for me to take a vacation.

Just got off the phone with Kim, today was Eric's Birthday, he would have been 45 today...Eric was Tessas' Father who died 2 years before Tessa. Kim lost her Father and Mother within 14 Months of Tessas death.

So Kim is hurting badly. I took tomorrow off.  Drank a shot today for my Brother.  God I miss him.  Was so stupid.  But he's still my Brother.

Kim and I had a good cry, deep cry...it helped a bit.  But Wounds run deep.

Sometimes you wanna scream at GOD and say WHY!!!

Mac
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« Reply #152 on: May 04, 2006, 08:28:04 PM »
MAC.....
Prayers for you and your family.
 Take care ... Stay Strong !

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« Reply #153 on: May 04, 2006, 08:51:14 PM »
A year and a few Months... and he gets to start life over again? As if nothing happened?  It's not right, not right at all!

What has happened to the Judicial System?  

What is in the head of these Judges?  Let it be one of their children...how long would the accused serve then?

Sad, this is so Sad,

mac
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« Reply #154 on: May 04, 2006, 09:07:22 PM »
This was just an update on what is happening.  I thank you for the prayers for not me but for Kim and Amanda.  Today was a bad Day Kims ex Hubby, my Brother, was his Birthday today..which was always a BIG event...if it could be grilled, smoked or burned we had it. Old Rock, stories of Eric and I going to concerts, teaching his birds to cuss...er speak. Memories.  And of Tess.

  Im just rambling on... I miss my Brother deeply and Tess ... now I hear that the guy that killed Tess will be released in September really messes up my head.

  Sorry I'm just OLD SCHOOL... and eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth.

  As much as this punk has made Kim, Amanda's life miserable I'll do the same to his life... I'll never let him forget he killed a lil girl.

  Now if you think I'm wrong, tell me if it was your Daughter or Niece would you feel the same?

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« Reply #155 on: May 04, 2006, 09:33:54 PM »
I don't know what I would feel. I can only imagine. I guess that's why we have impartial people to hand out judgement and punishment rather than vendettas.

I don't know this kid, but he made a terrible mistake, but that's no reason to destroy two people.
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« Reply #156 on: May 04, 2006, 09:36:25 PM »
Mac...
I'm so very sorry for you and your family.  Your sister in-law will be in my family's hearts.

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« Reply #157 on: May 04, 2006, 09:43:03 PM »
Mac,

Some things are out of your hands and it's not up to you to do anything to change it. The system has had it's "say" if you will. You going over it in your mind won't make it any different. Now what would your brother want you to do? Would he want you to simply keep going over the situation again and again, or would he want you to start to live your life again? Losing yourself won't help your brother, Tess or Kim. Someone has to start the process of moving beyond the grief and into the rest of your life.

Yeah I know easy for me to say as I'm removed from the situation. That doesn't make it any less valid.
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« Reply #158 on: May 05, 2006, 01:43:05 AM »
Mac,
FWIW, yeah, I'm sure anyone of us in your shoes would feel the same.
Let's say you do get revenge and end up behind bars. Do you think Kim and Amanda would feel better or worse?
What you feel right now, the losses of important people in your life, the terrible emptiness, will not be lessened when that animal gets his due. You'll feel a temporary relief but the pain and emptiness will come back.
Only thing that heals is time (and in some cases with councelling if the burdon is too great).
Yeah, I know....empty words.
Damn, I wish I knew what to say to help.
Good luck.
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« Reply #159 on: May 05, 2006, 05:18:44 AM »
Thanks guys.

I just feel the kid got a slap on the wrist. I just got to get beyond the grief, which is easier said than done. Yesterday was a tuff one being my Brothers Birthday and Kim called.  I'm sure this July 3rd will be even harder to deal with as it would have been Tessas'  Birthday.

It's dates and memories that Kim and I are dealing with that leaves us both crying together.

mac
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« Reply #160 on: May 05, 2006, 06:26:04 AM »
- Mac, your family has been through what can only be described as a nightmare. And never underestimate the pressure on you personally, I imagine you have had to be strong at times when everyone else could not be. This will leave healing in you to be done last and often without the help others recived in the early months. Give yourself time to get your mind settled, and dont be impatient with yourself.

 - Whenever i have trouble be they great or small i look for inspiration to a very great frined i have known for years and his family. from the age of 9 when i first met him his mother was dying of long term kidney failiure, a few years previously the family had lost thier second born son, a twin of the first born daughter, to cot death. the same year i met him one of his mothers 4 sisters died of cancer, 2 months before the grandfather passed. when we were 13 his aunt Helen and baby cousin william we killed in a head on crash with a lorry just 3 miles from his house in Amersham. then finaly 5 years ago his mother inevitably gave up the fight she had been fighting through for 25 years despite 3 kidney transplants, 2 donated from within the family.
 Though it all they have been nothing but a glowing light of friendship and joy for all that hold thier company.


 - As to reprisals for the murderer in the hotrod I would beg you to let creation have its way with him. we all get what is coming to us, what we deserve, and sometimes alot more, no need to increase your personal list of guilt to achieve something that wont bring your loved ones back.



these are only my thoughts from a possition of huge difference, My thoughts and prayers with you and yours mac.


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« Reply #161 on: May 05, 2006, 09:35:24 AM »
Why do you guys call this kid an animal and murderer? Wasn't it an accident, or did he kill  AWMac's niece intentionally?
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« Reply #162 on: May 05, 2006, 10:37:48 AM »
Oh, Mac...

Mac, I'm so sorry for you and your family.  I don't know you at all, but my heart breaks for you and yours.

She looks just like my little one...God forbid that children suffer.

FWIW, you have my deepest sympathies.  I hope the universe will bring your troubled family a little peace, and soon.

Remember this...we know we can't really change what happens, and that having control of our lives is a silly, comforting myth.  All we ever get to have is the knowledge of what we've done.

You gave a beautiful child everything she needed, when she needed it.  Her days were happy...better...more fulfilling, because she had Uncle Freddy.  Never forget what that means.

I agree that anger and reprisal, while perfectly natural, probably won't benefit you in the end.  However, letting the little killer roll through life letting the memory fade is entirely unacceptable.

I suggest that every year, at her birthday, Christmas, Easter (or whatever holidays are appropriate for your family) you send him (and each and every one of his accomplices) a nice card, with a photograph of her inside.  

Make it blank inside.  Say nothing.  Or perhaps write it to her, as you always would...but mail it to him.  But never stop...year after year.  Make certain he suffers pain for what he did, as you do.

Times like this, I wish I could actually do anything worthwhile to fix it.

With sincerest regrets...

PS...uvw...you need to be quiet.  You're out of order.
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« Reply #163 on: May 05, 2006, 12:45:17 PM »
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I suggest that every year, at her birthday, Christmas, Easter (or whatever holidays are appropriate for your family) you send him (and each and every one of his accomplices) a nice card, with a photograph of her inside.


BINGO!!!

Yes!!!!  That's it!!!  And a pic of her grave!

TY Goomba.


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« Reply #164 on: May 05, 2006, 01:55:05 PM »
Mac
 I am sorry man, your a good guy.


I am with the rest, dont let this pile of crap ruin you too.




The card is a great idea though.
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