Well, did my first three jumps this weekend.
ABSOLUTE HORROR; I was scared sh*tless. The jumpmaster opened the door, I looked out....FAR down, and we were only at 3000 feet. The noise was quite loud, and the feeling of the wind terror striking.
"INTO READY POSITION" the JM signalled, and, with my heart nowhere near where it is supposed to be, I somehow got myself moved into position, right leg out of the door, left leg behind me ready to push off.
"READY TO GO" was the next signal. I looked the JM deep into the eyes. At this point, fear level was high and on the rise, and I could feel my heart pounding away at the highest rate possible. "Don't look down, just go by automatic, like you've trained" I thought, all while repeating loudly "SEE GRAB SEE GRAB PULL PULL" - the emergency procedure in case something goes wrong.
Suddenly, I saw the JM's lips form "GO!" and I felt a slap on my shoulder. I don't know how, but I pushed away and a 140km/h wind grabbed me violently. I was knocked from an upright position to one where my head was pointed up towards the skies. Totally forgot about counting to 6 and was in totally scared. Violent pull, then, an open canopy above me. WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, still alive! two cells not properly inflated, but that is easily hanlded by pulling down on the breaks a bit.
Then 24h to next jump. Tjis time, I knew what awaited me and I was *even more* scared than before. I thought about not jumping a lot, and had slept very little the previous night. Jumpers 1-4 ahead of me jump off, no problem. My turn, last man. Something happens as I take ready position, and my pilot chute is out while I ams till in the plane! Jump master grabs it, pulls me in, closes door and orders pilot to land imemdiately. This scares me evn more. On the ground, a quick repacking of chute and they send me up on the very next lift. Now I am truly terrified. In position. GO. And I go. Better exit this time, I watch the plane disappear as I descend faster and faster. Chute out, feels good, chute is good. Lots of 360 turns, lots of laughing like a maniac, lots of screaming. Then upwind for landing. landed slightly harder this time and fell on my bum.
Third jump, same day. Weather is very grey and this is probably going to be the last jump anyone makes. I am number one to leave the aircraft again. Still feel very nervous and quite a bit afraid, but not as bad as last time. READy, then GO!. Perfect exit, in box from the start. COunt 1-6 thousand, chute should start deploying. Am thinking about pulling reserve when I feel it suddenly coming out, 4 seconds later than it should. Great fun flying around in the sky, lots a screaming again; I just cannot stop myself! It is SOO good and I am SO alive!. I make a standard landing approach, but cut some corners because I want to land near the club house. Turn upwind at 100 meters above the ground. There is a little wind, which helps my landing. Perfect landing; like stepping down from a step. One other student land near a tree and the canopy drags her into the forest, and another one decides landing on a bush is the best option. My sis makes a decent landing as well.
Now, something is wrong with my sis. She says, and I believe her, that she is more scared of taking exams than jumping. Not so with me. But the reward for jumping is absolutely fabolous. Nothing I've done to date can compare with it. The terror I feel is also very real, but the more experienced people say it'll pass with time. Well, jumping the chute you yourself has packed is sort of nerv wrecking to begin with, but then all the extra stuff comes in as well.
Next Saturday JumpWeek starts - 9 days of continuous jumping. I hope to get 25 qualified jumps that week and earn my certifikate. Hopefully the fear factor will go down at least a LITTLE next week; I don't consider myself a coward, but that stuff scares me mucho. But is fun at the same time. No fun without pain, the masochist said, I guess
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Sorry for long post, but this was just awesome. Now I know why the birds sing, and have upraded myself from a "Wuffo" to a "F*cking Student". Hopefully I will go to "Turkey" from here
Next time I bail out in AH, I will THINK about just how scary it can be. Geesh, think I'd rather ditch
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StSanta
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