Hi Guys,
Yesterday, my two year old son came in to my office while I was typing something for the O'Club and began trying to talk to me. I snapped at him and he started crying. After apologizing to him and telling him that daddy had sinned against him and asking for his forgiveness. I realized several things, amongst them that I spend too much time reading and responding around here, and that I don't much like who I am around my family when I am.
I know many that many people here simply view the O'Club as a series of verbal furballs, the objective of which is to score points and shoot down the opposition. I don't, I try to view them in the same way I would view conversations with anyone, and I get just as invested. It would be easier I guess, if I just didn't care that there are people on the other side of monitors reading this stuff, but I can't. I also don't thrive on a steady diet of controversy and argument, after a while I begin to get frustrated, preoccupied and worried I'm going to start venting or let pride have its way. My patience levels also tend to go down. I snap at home and in the workplace, neither of which is good.
Then the time element is a biggie, I spend probably 2 hours reading and responding here every day. Meanwhile I have two articles, I'm supposed to have finished, a ThD proposal I'm supposed to have written up, and a book I'm supposed to have started, that are all waaaaaaaaaay behind.
I feel bad because I know you guys were kind enough to foot my AH2 bill, and I can't thank you enough. So I almost feel like I have a responsibility to be invested here. Plus hey, I like the community here. But I also know I have to step back quite a bit.
So, just to say, I can't do the active participation in every thread that seems interesting thing anymore. If my name is invoked, I'll try to do the Genie thing and appear, or if someone has a direct question you can always ask, and the personal stuff I'll always be around for, but I have to get the other portions of this O'Club addiction under control.
- SEAGOON
