this isnt really the place, more respect should maybe be shown to the threads topic.....i know what you're saying about being yourself more and wanting to get things in order for number 1 not being the worst thing in the world, but are you sure you've thought about how selfish suicide is, unless there really isnt any creature on the planet that depends on you and/or will be traumatised by the events of your 'unusual' death, then maybe you got no one else to affect and fair play, pull the trigger.
an unatural death effects all animals on earth that have any degree of intelligence. humans are very good at pretending that we can 'take it' but put a human through something unatural such as suicide and every single one will be affected in some way by what they experience.
attempted suicide is, if i am not mistaken, a crime in some parts of our world. so if you jump infront of a train and lose both you legs you could end up in prison, with no legs. that would suck.
with all due respect lasersailor, more importantly ASTAC, that is all i have to say.