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Offline Boroda

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« on: March 28, 2007, 07:24:09 PM »
I must be a happy man. There are only two things to keep me from thinking: my job and vodka. I don't use any mind-extenders except alcohol, and I have enough _funny_ problems at work.

I always hated thinking too much, but before last 2 months I didn't see thinking as a real problem. "Do as you feel you should, accept what happens" - it's my motto. At least I hope it still is, because I have to kill my thinking abilities not related to my job now.

Job: solving IT probs. Me and my co-worker (a first guy I met here when I moved to Moscow 25 years ago) support 2 Academic institutes (just for job records) and a some companies that pay us real money. It's fun, and it brings enough money to buy bread/butter (some caviar too sometimes), booze and tobacco.

I am almost unable to read now. Reading no more then 20-30 pages daily instead of usual 100-150. Listening to my MP3-player in the subway instead.

Offended my good friend, didn't meet his wife in the airport, Estel did it. Simply tried to stop thinking by meeting a woman I betray right now (didn't call her since Sunday), walked her kid when I had to be in the airport...

Looks like I got into the middle of the 30-years crisis when I am 34. Hoped I avoided it, but the bloody anatomy, hormones, and other bio-chemistry is stronger then my mind. The worst thing is that I can't control myself, a horrible feeling for me, who always tries to keep behaving according to reason, not feelings. This time I really fail.

Remembering all my friends who passed this crisis I only hope I'll not go nuts and turn to religion, lose all my friends or marry a woman that I'll probably hate later. I am almost a ruin, I hate myself: there is nothing more miserable then a man who can't keep his feelings inside, but it's much easier to explain it all in a foreign language, keeps me from thinking again ;)

Final question for people who are over 30: did anything like this happen to you? Or is it just a national Russian feature, going off the rocker after 30 years old?....

Sorry for being too pathetic, as usual :) Going to work my bellybutton off tomorrow :) After all - I hope I can fix it.
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Offline Regular

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« Reply #1 on: March 28, 2007, 08:06:35 PM »
So your an alcoholic?

Ever try not drinking for 30 days?

LOL.

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« Reply #2 on: March 28, 2007, 08:21:31 PM »
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Originally posted by Regular
So your an alcoholic?

Ever try not drinking for 30 days?

LOL.

:lol


Didn't drink at all for about 90 days last year, was easier then I thought. Anyway, it's easier after a couple of beers or 150grams.

Yes, I know I am an alcoholic, so what? You can't drink and laugh at the others just because they can? It's all you can do, mister "i'll die healthy", eh?

We say: "Go drink if you mind your job". Bad translation, it's archaic Russian, "Pey da delo razumey". I am sure I can do my job and behave better after a half-litre then 90% of sober pepsi-drinking kids 10 years younger then me.

That is not a question, they simply can't think and don't understand my problem.
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Offline Dichotomy

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« Reply #3 on: March 28, 2007, 08:21:52 PM »
30 whole days? :O

*runs from the room in terror

Edit.. oh and Borah..

I think most people reach a stage like this in their lives.  Good luck
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« Reply #4 on: March 28, 2007, 09:05:19 PM »
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I think most people reach a stage like this in their lives.  Good luck


Thanks.

Posting here really helps to occupy my mind.
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Offline Mark Luper

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« Reply #5 on: March 28, 2007, 09:42:19 PM »
Boroda,

I went through it too. Most men do I think and some women. 30 something seems to be an age when you start realizing there is less time to achieve greatness than when you were 20. You start thinking about things differently. It's gradual and you don't notice it at first but then it seems to hit you all at once.

Hang in there and try to reduce the drinking to non alcaholic levels. It doesn't really help. Look for new approaches to old problems.

I feel for you.

Mark
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« Reply #6 on: March 28, 2007, 09:49:53 PM »
Baroda, the good news, you will make it through this stage of your life by putting one foot in front of the other...  the bad news is, there are more stages ahead  :)

i don't think i have to tell you that if you face what you try to aviod thinking about, you will grow...
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Offline Yeager

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« Reply #7 on: March 28, 2007, 09:58:20 PM »
Started for me at about age 36.  42 and its still raging.  The funny thing is I have learned to just not give a **** because theres nothing you can do about it.  Just have to go with it and have faith that in the end you end up where you are supposed to.  Wherever that is......
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« Reply #8 on: March 29, 2007, 04:54:02 AM »
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Offline Angus

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« Reply #9 on: March 29, 2007, 08:00:00 AM »
Boroda, if the work is ok, and the $ is ok, then maybe you need some new challenge. A hobby perhaps, and how about the ladies matter?
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« Reply #10 on: March 29, 2007, 08:32:10 AM »
Find a hobby and lay off the booze. It happens to alot of people.
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« Reply #11 on: March 29, 2007, 08:50:51 AM »
It has been my experiance that if you are an alcoholic that you simply need to quit drinking completely.

If you are an alcoholic and quit drinking you will have more time, money and energy to do other things that will be fun.

If you quit drinking you will be less depressed..  not only is the booze itself a depressant but the way you are acting around people and the way you feel about yourself is depressing.  

You will also find a better class of people to hang out with once you notice what scumbags you have been with.

It gets better over the years.   It may be hard for a a few years but it is worth it.

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Offline Xasthur

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« Reply #12 on: March 29, 2007, 09:06:15 AM »
Lazs2 is right about the alcohol having depressing effects. Drinking enough to make you feel **** in the morning really makes it hard to be enthusiastic about being alive when you wake up.

2 or 3 beers with a cigarette or two is fine to wind down with, but once you start to cross the 10+ drink barrier every night (not hard to do with spirits) you'll notics a significant downturn in your attitude toward life.
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« Reply #13 on: March 29, 2007, 10:48:33 AM »
"I feel sorry for people who don't drink.  When they wake up in the morning, that is the best they'll feel all day long."
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« Reply #14 on: March 29, 2007, 11:08:48 AM »
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"I feel sorry for people who don't drink.  When they wake up in the morning, that is the best they'll feel all day long."




:rofl :rofl :rofl :rofl :rofl :rofl
I like the way you think sir!
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