Not afraid to die anymore

[slipknot]

Always have been, always thought about it, worried, obsessed. Often, when in bed and unable to sleep, I would immerse myself in the sheer magnitude and totality of death, and how cruel and unfair and disrespectfully trifling it seemed.

Then, about 3 days ago, it just hit me. Some sort of revelation. Now, a brief disclaimer: I'm not religious at all, never have been, never will be. But that day, I just realized that this body I'm in right now doesn't represent the beginning of me, nor will it define the ending. No reason, no event, nothing I ate drank or smoked... Just happened.

Crazy thing is, it's made me so much happier. I enjoy talking to people a little bit more, enjoy the minutiae of life a little bit more. The moment I starting taking every minute as just another slide in this grand experience, rather than another tick towards a dark and inevitable end, everything became so much more clear.

I must live as best I can, fullfill as many of my dreams as I can, be as nice as I can to those who deserve it, and the rest will take care of itself. No matter what happens, or doesn't happen, everything will be alright.

[Cthulhu]

OK, I'll say it and probably get slammed as a result:

"You're not thinking of moving to Florida and taking up flying lessons are you?"

j/k man

[slipknot]

Lol, naa... I'm even farther from trying to convince people of anything now than I was a few days ago. I'd love to get a pilot's license, though.

[Nilsen]

Death doesnt bother me in any other way than that my daughter will be without a dad and the missus will have a crap time until she finds a new fella.

They are well taken care of tho and wont need money for the rest of their lives if i fold up, so that is taken care of.

I mean seriously, what is there to be a afraid of? You wont know about it anyway, you are just gone. Its not like you sit around and wait for skuzzy to hook you back up 

[angelsandair]

Always have been, always thought about it, worried, obsessed. Often, when in bed and unable to sleep, I would immerse myself in the sheer magnitude and totality of death, and how cruel and unfair and disrespectfully trifling it seemed.

Then, about 3 days ago, it just hit me. Some sort of revelation. Now, a brief disclaimer: I'm not religious at all, never have been, never will be. But that day, I just realized that this body I'm in right now doesn't represent the beginning of me, nor will it define the ending. No reason, no event, nothing I ate drank or smoked... Just happened.

Crazy thing is, it's made me so much happier. I enjoy talking to people a little bit more, enjoy the minutiae of life a little bit more. The moment I starting taking every minute as just another slide in this grand experience, rather than another tick towards a dark and inevitable end, everything became so much more clear.

I must live as best I can, fullfill as many of my dreams as I can, be as nice as I can to those who deserve it, and the rest will take care of itself. No matter what happens, or doesn't happen, everything will be alright.

Stay away from my house 

[slipknot]

Stay away from my house 

Give me your exact address and I'll make sure to avoid it at all cost.

[angelsandair]

Give me your exact address and I'll make sure to avoid it at all cost.

[CAP1]

Lol, naa... I'm even farther from trying to convince people of anything now than I was a few days ago. I'd love to get a pilot's license, though.

stay away from the PRNJ please

[slipknot]

I'd have to know what it is to stay away from it.

[CAP1]

I'd have to know what it is to stay away from it.

PRNJ= Peoples Republic Of New Jersey

[slipknot]

I tend to stay away from there anyway, CAP, so I don't think you need to worry. Next time I drive up to NYC I'll look for an alternative route.

[CAP1]

I tend to stay away from there anyway, CAP, so I don't think you need to worry. Next time I drive up to NYC I'll look for an alternative route.

lolol....just kiddin dude......in all seriousness, NJ is much greener than most realize. i've flown over wharton state forrest, and out in the warren grove military operating area too. lot of oncontrolled airspace makes it nice.

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[slipknot]

lolol....just kiddin dude......in all seriousness, NJ is much greener than most realize. i've flown over wharton state forrest, and out in the warren grove military operating area too. lot of oncontrolled airspace makes it nice.

<<S>>

I've driven through much of the state. It's a strange juxtaposition of the pleasant, the odd, and the undesireable. It's green, with nice country roads and very charming rural areas, but then you can't pump your own gas. There's the pleasant and odd for you. Take a trip to the shore and you get more pleasantness, until you hit AC... Bingo. Undesireable. Looks and feels like a medium-security prison dumped out onto the beach...

A mixed bag, but then again, with Delaware and New York as your neighbors, mixed bag seems pretty much appropriate.

[panzerr]

Always have been, always thought about it, worried, obsessed. Often, when in bed and unable to sleep, I would immerse myself in the sheer magnitude and totality of death, and how cruel and unfair and disrespectfully trifling it seemed.

Then, about 3 days ago, it just hit me. Some sort of revelation. Now, a brief disclaimer: I'm not religious at all, never have been, never will be. But that day, I just realized that this body I'm in right now doesn't represent the beginning of me, nor will it define the ending. No reason, no event, nothing I ate drank or smoked... Just happened.

Crazy thing is, it's made me so much happier. I enjoy talking to people a little bit more, enjoy the minutiae of life a little bit more. The moment I starting taking every minute as just another slide in this grand experience, rather than another tick towards a dark and inevitable end, everything became so much more clear.

I must live as best I can, fullfill as many of my dreams as I can, be as nice as I can to those who deserve it, and the rest will take care of itself. No matter what happens, or doesn't happen, everything will be alright.

I hear that this happens just before it's your time....

[texasmom]

A budding optomist! Wonderful!