You posted this because you are frustrated. It's just a game man, thats all. Some people get really hot at being a cartoon pilot, and some of us just cant.
Take me and my situation, and most people are not aware of this about me either. Back in the day i flew a lot of AW, i was pretty good too. I flew with Outlaws Gunslingers, also was an original CHAWK, and while jhffo and i were the buff kings and swapped out the number one ranking with each other month to month, i got really good in 109's, but my specialty was walking the flaps in a a26 and furballin' spits and knocking em down left and right. I was known as <26> in those days. I used to be good.
And now, i am 51 years old, got a lot of injurys, and due to taking my race car over the wall two years ago, and after several surgerys, my right hand is never coming back 100%. Even though i am right handed, i have learned to mouse with the left, but i just cant do that with the stick, and trying to handle a fighter just doesnt work out to well for me. Thats why you never see me doing much of anything but buff's or gv's most of the time. Some days i can knock a fly off a crap wagon at 3k out in a tank, other days i cant hit an m3 500m in front of me. Last night for example i was on it, and defended a vbase from snow and the boys with a field gun single handedly, killing a panzer, an m4, 2 m3's, and two aircraft as well. Today i cant hit an f4 with a wirbel 400m right over my head. Some days the pains so bad or i am so numb all i do is up a buff to 35k and go porking, cause its all i can do.
It comes and it goes, and there isnt a damn thing i can do about it. I sometimes get the usual "noob" from some of the " personalitys", etc. for example, but little do they know, there was once a time i could mop the arena's with some of the current best in AH. That isnt so anymore. I have accepted that fact, and thats just how it is man.
Dont beat yourself up over it, relax, realize your limitations, and just have fun. Thats what i do, thats what we all should do man.
