if you are merging head to head, as you say, then it is not a reversal as far as I know. It is a merge, you are being out merged by either a factor of plane performance, relative speeds, vertical seperation or pilot ability. (you refuse to help yourself by filming and letting us help you)
You cannot view things as 'up down left right faster slower'. The speed induced four dimensional aspect of moving in free three dimensional space is confusing your eye to see something impossible.