I think you need to examine your attention seeking habits as well as rethink where you go for advice. Talk to your parents, a pastor or priest, a school counselor... There are any number of people you could speak to about this, but you chose to post it in the Off Topic section of a BBS dedicated to online flight sim? Doesn't that seem like an odd choice? Especially considering the grief that you tend to get here...
So, this strikes me as nothing more then some bizarre attention seeking troll.
I don't thrive for attention like this, and I'm doing my best to ignore the people who give me grief. I wouldn't post if I wasn't serious, the fact that almost all of you view me as a attention seeking troll is a major put down. Would you like me to leave and never come back? Is that what you really want?
I don't like talking to my parents about matters like this, my parents make things awkward alot of the time, I don't go to church ever anymore because my parents work on Sunday's, and school let out on the 20th. This was practically the only place I could get advice. As I've said before, I'm not a very popular guy(not that I care) but It means you don't have many friends.