That last 60 seconds starting exactly at the 1:00 to go mark about sums it up.

I'm playing a &*&$#@ video game that I'm angry at, I suck at it, it bothers me that I suck at it, and that's why I continue to pay, so I can continue to suck at it, etc....

Check out this site and read everything on there,
Netaces.org. Next, get the fighter pilot's bible, Fighter Combat: Tactics and Maneuvering by Robert Shaw. Read those, learn some proper ACM and how to string them together for various tactics and situations and you'll be good to go.
Or it's time for you to look for a new FPH, the one you have is obviously letting you down.

ack-ack