Just some very humble advice is all I have.
I activated my addiction... Ahem Subscription.... My Subscription, about one year ago. On average I was putting about 30-40 hours a week into being online playing or doing some form of school type studying each week over this past year. Most all of it has been great... If not down right illegal in some states

Once I started to get the hang of things the game changed on me.... Challenge myself too my most extreme possibilities was my mantra. Away I went into the virtual sky day in and day out.... Frustration about small things is how it started for me. Not small things I can control directly but small things I can not or did not know how to control. As my knowledge of the game grew so did my understanding of the small things which my frustration stems from... Or so I thought. After endless study of these small things and how to counter them I thought it would be back to business as usual. Still more and more things would show up that would frustrate me and more learning needed be done, rinse and repeat. My frustration however never went away, it would just evolve as my learning did, swapping out one for another. The more I tried the more frustration turned into anger.
Work harder is what I thought... 40+ hours a week learn more... Fight harder.... Push push push as I am now just getting started with learning the game within the game within the game if you follow. Stripping everything which does not pay the bills or my daughter, out of the way... Distractions they were.
Priorities: 1 my daughter 2 my business 3 being the scariest pixel pilot in aces high, end list!
That was it for me over the past 5 or 6 months and hit it with both feet running I did.
At a point it got so bad with my anger... Well let's just say I had a stripper pole in my living room with a mattress wrapped around it so I could beat it with a baseball bat and not really break anything because I would put in another sortie and need to do it again about every hour, then have a cig and come right back for more abuse. I would make a weekly trip to the Dollar Store and spend about twenty bucks on things I could keep close by in case I get HO'd by someone while I was already fighting a multi con fight... It's only a buck an item too throw and break.

Thanks (not so nice words) guy!

If you feel this way.... Take a whole tour off. Best thing you will ever do for your sanity. The game is not going anywhere and you might be surprised.

~<Deadstik