Ahhh don't let it get to you Mike, quite a few here have seen many moons, although some may be like rocks (this includes me) when it come to learning something, if you do something enough, it will start to sink in, you cannot help it, it just does.
Give it some time and you will not only learn what move to make without thinking you will start getting bore with the [trying to always have the avantage] and will put youself into positions of disavantage just to see if you can climb out of the hole you just dug for yourself.