Talk about a gamy wish.
No, while it may seem like your getting killed all the time and will never get better at this game with out "help" like this wish, just remember that each and everyone of us have followed the same path. We have ALL be kill a million times, some of us thousands be fore we won our first fight fair and square.
Practice! Get help from the trainers, then practice some more. Add in a whole lot of dying just like the rest of us and in time you'll start beating those guys who use to kill you, or you didn't see. Hang in there, we all went through the same growing pains. There is no short cut, just work for it if it is what you really want and you'll get there.
Good Luck! <S>