I won't go into gory detail. I will tell you I've been through the ringer.
On June 4, 2017 my mom passed away. That hit me harder than I could ever imagine. I kept telling mom in the hospital that we will get you fixed up and have Sunday dinner. That never happened. I went to Sunday dinner for years and years. We'd have dinner and play fun games.
Then work went to hell around the same time. They promoted a girl over me that had absolutely no accounting experience, I'm a CPA. Then they had a new manager that, this is unbelievable, wrote me up for asking the office if anyone wanted to order out and for actually doing my job. I'm not making this up.
Then too, I was the executor of the estate. That turned into hell, Contractors trying to rip you off, disgruntled family members, and so on. Then people with no right asking for everything.
I had never been so down in my life!
I woke up one morning to go to work and couldn't get my pants on. I just couldn't! I started crying uncontrollably. I need help! I called a help line. They set me up with a Therapist immediately. They tell me I sounded like I was about to go over a cliff. I don't know.
When I met with the Therapist he said something surprising, This is at least half your fault. I was taken aback. Then I realized this is the best thing I ever heard. This means I have the ability to control myself. After months of therapy I was back up and running. I can only describe it as painful.
In one meeting he asked if I go to church. I told him I believe in God. He said I will take that as a no. So I started attending church. Now I say, When I didn't go to church God sent me to a therapist.
I only went back to that job one more time, that was for a termination meeting. When I told them everything that happened at the Job, in personal life, the plant manager, HR Manager, and finance Manager started crying.
Eventually I was able to get much better and landed a job that paid 50% more than I was making. From there I built a new home that I just moved into last November. It's only my second home.
I attend church regularly these days. The support I get from family is incredible. I still see the therapist weekly. It's definitely been good.
If I may pass out some advice, If you need help seek it.
