I don't know why I'm posting this here. But somebody may find this warning useful in the future you never know. I can't say they are all bad, but they few that I have come across in the past 6 months seem to be only glorified drug dealers. Poison dealers should be more like it. Last August they overdosed and almost killed me with depakote. Then to "cure" the anxiety brought on by the depakote they put me on xanax and quickly I was up to taking 4mg of it a day, that's a lot. Within 2 months I was thoroghly addicted to a new drug which makes pot look like a childrens candy cigarette.
Last week I figured I had had enough and quit the xanax. This week has been Hell. I have been in full blown physical withdrawal since last Monday morning. Crawly skin, chills, cold sweats the whole 9 yards. And to top it all of this past Tuesday at aproximately 10:05 am I entered a whole new category in life. One second I was sitting at my computer at work, the next instant I'm turned around at my desk and there is a paramedic at each arm holding me up in my chair asking if I'm ok. I said "what happened" They said "you had a seizure" I said "no I didn't"
Then they took me to the hospital for a catscan and other test to see what happened. The day is a blur but the doc at the hospital told me that I had suffered a "Grand Mal Seizure" caused by withdrawal from xanax. (a posibility my shrink never informed me of) From what I can tell, this is the worst kind of seizure you can have. My co-workers said they thought I was dead. They said it was a 10 minute full blown spaz out foaming at the mouth seizure. I bit a nice hole through the inside of my bottom lip. And bruised my shoulder and neck from the 6' fall I took. There was a good chance that I wouldn't wake up from it either, thank GOD I did
So now I'm in this whole other classification of life. Thanks doc! Just wish I would have listened to the 2 or 3 emails I got from this group that warned me of shrinks. Stay away from them if you have the choice, they are no good and will leave you addicted to something. LOL! My doctor (shrink) has been out of town for 2 weeks so I had to deal with the doc that handles his emergencies. His cure was the "wein" me off the xanax with some other drug. When I looked it up it said once you start taking it you have to keep taking it or you WILL have seizures.
This was his "quick cure" he even wrote me a script for it, but I refuse to put anymore drugs in the old piehole.
One thing they never tell you in school is how much a seizure hurts the 2 days after you have one. I felt like I had been playing football for 3 solid days. EVERY muscle in my body ached, even my jaw. Things have been "off" since then too. Hard to describe, I think it's residual withdrawal simptoms though the doctor at the emergency room said that the worst should be over.
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