I like a good 'war' flick, hey; who didn't enjoy the Longest Day, or 12 O'Clock High.. From Here to Eternity... you know; Hollywood War movies.
I especially liked WWII era Movies, good fun hollywood stuff.
But lately, I'm not enjoying war movies as much anymore. It started with Saving Private Ryan. That one numbed me up in the theatre. Kinda left me feeling hollow and morose. A loooong time ago I watched Apoclypse Now.. swore I'd never watch another Vietnam movie... made me really angry. "Whatta bunch of BS.." I thought. Made me feel like kickin Coppola in the balls. Sure wasn't my war.
I saw 'Blackhawk Down'.. I was screwed. I walked out even more depressed than I was after SPR. "no more of these... " I'm thinkin. I don't need to be reminded of what it's like to see men die like that. I got truly drunk for the first time in many years. I managed to sleep ok that night.
Rented "We Were Soldiers Once..." last night. Recent tread topics spurred me to it, and I'd heard from some friends it was 'pretty good'.
Sucked me in slowly it did.. the schmaltzy daddy scenes, the training, the guys standing on the ridge at Benning listening to the skip radio broadcast... tripe. I was actually relieved, this one was gonna be a cornball hero movie.
20 minutes later I had to turn it off. (Blackhawk Down was my very last 'in theatre' war movie. never again I said..) My hands were shaking.. I was breathing hard. I did not feel well. I almost hurled.
Took awile before I could turn it back on.. but I finished it. The last charge was BS, and the terrian where I was was nothin like that. But the rest of it hit home. Hard.
Bad night last night... got a bottle of Dewars here with me, this one should be better.
I dunno for sure what it was... the movie really brought nothin new to the screen about Vietnam. It did however bring home what it felt like. To me. It caught the terror, the incredible ferocity and the feeeling of being uttery powerless to make it stop.
Thank god there was a remote. That made it stop.
I think I'm gettin unstable in my old age. Stuff like this never used to bug me this much... obviously; I need to switch to something stronger in the recreational drug catagory and stay the hell outta the video store. New personal rule.. unless it's made by disney; I ain't watchin it.