I flew with her once during an AH historical event. We winged Japanese planes and talked on vox. She was intelligent and articulate. I am deeply sorry to hear this. A young friend of mine hung himself two Christmasses ago. It is hard to reconcile these occurrences.
Fair skies and tailwinds Jessica
I may be very late to this topic, but it is terribly sad and frustrating to hear of someone, anyone really, taking their own life. I had one of my best friends hang himself in 2004 (I was home on leave the week before and we had a great time, never in a million years would have thought he would do it and told him that if he ever wanted to talk to call me). Went back to base and a week later gone. In 2016, one of the best guys I have ever know and one of my Sapper brothers also killed himself and left behind a wife and 2 kids...Then just last year, another one of my best friends, actually, knew him longer than anyone and had a lot in common, even looked almost like brothers, killed himself. We still, or at least I still cannot understand why....only that a revolver was found with 1 round in the chamber, spent of course, and we think he was playing Russian Roulette with himself for a long time before his luck finally ran out. Or maybe it was just that he knew eventually it would and came to terms with it. I just wish that people that are struggling and think that there is no way out or nobody there for them would literally just think for a minute. Because there is always someone there to talk to. Hell, I had a lot of problems when I got back from the war and there were many times when I thought that I could not go on or that I was lost and would never be able to find my way back. Then my daughter was born and of all the things in my life that have still bothered me, I just think of that little girl and that is the reason I am still here! Also, and I explained this in my "Remember Me" post from a few days ago, I was still pretty bad off when I found AH and began playing and you really do build relationships on here and it is almost like its own family that you honestly can count on. I remember a few times being pretty depressed and sharing that with a couple of the guys and I was not ignored or laughed at...I was told that I should cheer up and if I needed anything, talk, etc, to just reach out! The other thing about suicide, imo, is that it really is the "easy way out: because while you may end your suffering and pain, they do not realize that they leave behind countless others who then have their own pain and suffering to go through...over the person who did it in the first place because they felt alone. As much as Suicide Prevention and other types of groups have become more visible and accessible over the years, there is still a lot of work to do! I did not know her nshida, but to all of you who did I am sorry for your loss...