Nash, you're one of the brightest guys here. I hope you're bright enough to seek help with your addiction- it won't mean you're weak, it'll mean you're strong enough to seek the help you need.
Man, I'm always amazed at this- Life is so fleeting and short, and so full of new discoveries and fun things to do, why spend part of it zonked out on dope?
Get help Nash and come back to the world of the living. I know the grip drugs can have on a person, unfortunately, and I know you need AA to kick this crap.
-Airhead, former cocaine addict/pusher, straight for almost twenty years now.