Author Topic: Coming clean (Read 10358 times)

AKS\/\/ulfe · « **Reply #75 on:** October 28, 2003, 06:17:35 PM »

Well, I do know what I'm talking about... but don't let me change your mind Lazs. AA/NA isn't some miracle, it requires the willpower of those attending it to change their lives.
-SW

Kieran · « **Reply #76 on:** October 28, 2003, 06:19:01 PM »

You guys can both be right and wrong, there ain't no panacea for kicking the habit. Leave no stone unturned is the best outlook.

Nash · « **Reply #77 on:** October 28, 2003, 06:20:52 PM »

Nash · « **Reply #78 on:** October 28, 2003, 06:21:31 PM »

This pic should kill two birds with one stone... putting the "trolling" questions to rest I hope, and at the same time answering Creamo's post in language that he can understand.

Yegads tho. Who would troll about something like this? Weird. But nah... I laughed when I read your reply Creamo... It was an incredibly stupid thing to do. I didn't do this "over a girl" though, as if I needed to pick up a heroin habit in order to win her over or something absurd like that. She did it, I tried it out, and that's pretty much it. And the money...yeah that does suck but I made it when I wasn't all there... I've done everything at 10% capacity for so so long. Clean, I'll get it back. If not, oh well. It's the least of my problems at any rate. Hmm...I did say posts like this were entertaining....and if you really did "lol", my work here is done.

Thanks SO much everyone for all the kind words, support and emails! It came as a total suprise to me just how much a simple "good luck" and "my prayers are with you" ended up really making me feel better, a LOT better, about this entire thing. It choked me up reading the posts here to be honest. I haven't let anyone in on my little secret, and seeing the responses here makes things... much more real. I don't know how I've gotten away with this for so long, with practically nobody (but you guys now) knowing the extent of it... or even close to it. This is a big relief to me, somehow. Like a long exhail.

The suggestions re detox/rehab centers is a great idea. I want to try and kick this on my own for the time being... but if I fail even just once I'll be checking into one of those immediately- without a doubt. I'm worn out and sick of this... so whatever it takes is what it'll take.

It's day 3.... I feel like complete hell so I'm gonna take a break from typing, but I'll be checking in and writing again later to maybe respond a bit more specifically to the posts here and to let you know how things are going.

Thanks for 'listening' and thanks again for all of your support. It's incredible how much good this is doing me right now, and its taught me that if you're in a pickle, share it. It helps. A great bunch of guys you all are.

Innominate · « **Reply #79 on:** October 28, 2003, 06:55:34 PM »

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Originally posted by Ripsnort
Where is the "Legalize drugs! they're a victimless crime!" crowd???

I wish nash the best of luck kicking his addiction, but the only thing he's a victim of is his own stupid decisions.

Udie · « **Reply #80 on:** October 28, 2003, 06:55:57 PM »

Glad to see you post Nash!

This is your row to hoe so to speak, but I really do wish you'd go to a detox center at least. They can help with the medical side effects of withdrawal. That's YOUR decision though and only you can make it. They say xanax is just as bad or worse than heroine, so man I know what you're going through first hand! I was stupid and tried to do mine cold turkey and I almost died because of it. The siezure changed my life and probably took a few years off of it too. If I had it to do over I would have checked into rehab before I quit. They have meds that can help you quit and keep your mood 'somewhat' stable.

Anyway man glad to see you post, been worried about you all day. 512-372-8218 if you want to talk man I'll be home in about 1.5 hours from now but I'm there all night, call anytime........

Ripsnort · « **Reply #81 on:** October 28, 2003, 06:56:39 PM »

Nash, please see a Doc about your veins, seems you may have early signs of cerebral-vein thrombosis.

Heres a good link to start with regarding withdrawl:
http://www.druglibrary.org/schaffer/heroin/herowith.htm

And theres help out there WHEN not IF, you need it.
http://www.heroinabuse.net/

deSelys · « **Reply #82 on:** October 28, 2003, 06:59:57 PM »

Just saw this thread...

Nash I wish you success. But I wouldn't wait to fail once to go to AA or NA. You've already made your 'coming out' here. You need to do it in front of 'real people' (the more the better) to help you go on day after day. And those people at AA or NA lived or are living what you're going through, they'll be a great support and they'll give you some tips too.

Never been through something like this myself, but I've met this 'community' of yours a few times in my job. Get out of it ASAP.

Keep it up, Mate, this is probably THE fight of your life.

Ripsnort, I once thought you were a decent, honest person....Your background colored quote murdered this illusion I had.

GRUNHERZ · « **Reply #83 on:** October 28, 2003, 07:00:59 PM »

Thanks for the update Nash, keep it up man!

Lizard3 · « **Reply #84 on:** October 28, 2003, 07:03:23 PM »

Keep yer resolve Nash.

Ripsnort · « **Reply #85 on:** October 28, 2003, 07:03:42 PM »

Quote

Originally posted by deSelys

Ripsnort, I once thought you were a decent, honest person....Your background colored quote murdered this illusion I had.

Like I could give a rats *** what anyone thinks. If you can't see the joke, then don't comment on it.

Animal · « **Reply #86 on:** October 28, 2003, 07:07:50 PM »

Nash you are hot even with your skinny smack addict posture and complexion.

P.S: now you have to turn conservative like Udie did.

Frodo · « **Reply #87 on:** October 28, 2003, 07:14:07 PM »

Good luck Nash.

~~Frodo~~

Thrawn · « **Reply #88 on:** October 28, 2003, 07:19:18 PM »

Please update when you feel up to it. It's good to hear that you are still pulling through.

PS: Crap, I just realised this means you still managed to kick my bellybutton in the DA, way back when, while pissed.

Gremlin · « **Reply #89 on:** October 28, 2003, 07:19:44 PM »

Nash,

Dont say 'I will go to NA if I fail even once'. You will not fail, not even once, this is too friggin important. Its your whole life man. Yeah its gonna be hard, yeah your gonna feel like a piece of crap, but it wont last forever. You will be clean and have a great life to look forward to. I knew a girl, an old neighbour who thought she could control heroin, shes dead, she was wrong. Just think to yourself, that aint gonna happen to me. Cause it aint. You aint gonna beat it tomorrow, you beat it today and everyday my friend.