Hehe, I AM fascinated by war, I love war history, and history in general. At the same time, war and the suffering it brings on people disgusts me, and I'm pretty convinced I'd never pick up a gun and point it on another human. But that may be a bit hypocritical of me to say, since I don't know how I'd react in any given situation.
Would I silently watch someone gun down my family or friends (or anyone rellay)? Hell no, no one would.
Do I want to kill someone? Hell no, if I could I'd rather just disable anyone threatening me or my family or friends (or anyone else).
Point is, death penalty is worse than murder in some ways, since that's murder comitted by supposedly sane, calm and level people.
Murderers are generally intoxicated, mentally ill or by any sort affected mentally.
On revenge and hate - it's sweet, but at the same time bitter. Hate will eat you from inside and make you a smaller person. Revenge will maybe soothe sorrow and agony, but only forgiving can heal your soul fully.
I wish I could go deeper into this, but I don't have the time right now (spend too much time on BBS's), and also, my english isn't good enough to properly express my reasoning in the correct way.
I'm anti war, but still fascinated - wether I like it or not, war has changed the course of history more than anything else.
So I still play AH, CM:BO, WWIIOL, CS, FP, you name it.
For those interested in the 'human pathology of war' I can recommend a book called 'Janus', by Arthur Koestler, which is a summary of his works.