Well crap it is here in hamburg 2am, I cant sleep I am leaving the city. I have I flight tomarrow at 9am, and seriously I am bawling like a damn girl. Maybe my marriage is ended? It is mostly my fault cause I drink too dmn much and then say things when we argue. My stuff is packed, She says maybe we can try again in 6 months but until then I move to america to live with my parents. Damn you never know what a good thing you have until it is like gone. I have given up drinking but until then I miss her. 2nd I cant stand flying in a civil airliner. If I flew myself then all would be ok(but of course I cant). I am damn scared I am like gonna die in a crash in like 6+ hours. Who knows if I make it back then if lucky have to come back here in 6th months. But until then appreciate your woman, give her flowers more, a little hug, maybe you dont need to fly that last sortie but spend some time listening what she wants to say. Oh I wish I did.And now I tell you tards that I am bawling like a baby and youll never let me live that down. So you praying type would be cool if you sent out good vibes for my wife, our future chances, and all the people on flights 74 and 784.(cause its selfish for me to ask for you to pray my sorry arse gets there in one piece).