I used to have the same probs fooby, all of mine stemmed from my brain not being able to slow down. I'm constantly thinking about something . I had always been the big shot football player in high school, goint to all the paries and evrything went to college at UT and played ball there until I tore up my knee my junior year. It basically ended my college sports career and I almost let it destroy my life. After that happened I stopped going to class, quit talking to friends, basically just gave up. The only thing I could think about was, now I have no friends, can't do the only thing I luv anymore, will never get another girl because i'm not playing ball anymore, you name it I thought it. I didn't wanna eat, get outta bed or anything, just lay around my dark room and pop every kind of pain killer I could get my hands on. I used to just chew up handfulls of vicodins and codienes, basically anything bad for me I did. I don't know how I did it but I ended up graduating with a degree in business management, but to me it was useless, the 1 thing I wanted to do was over... When I got outta school working and everybody at work said I needed to see a doc. Went and saw 1 and all he said he could do was medicate me, which is not what I wanted. By this time I had 3 girlfriends break up and leave me lol one cheated on me with my best friend lol one just used me for money and the other gave me the friend speech lol, so I was feeling really really low at this point in my life... The only thing I had going good for me was my job that was it. I knew i was getting really bad and running out of time quick, I just knew there was no way I could keep living like that. So I took every single negative thing in my life and got rid of it, tried not to think about it. I engulfed myself at work making myself just as busy as I could, found me an awesome online game to play in my off time, built a 68 camero on weekends... just basically did everything I could to stay as busy as I could and not think about stuff. Basically quit drinking, and I haven't had any kind of pill stronger than a tylenol lol. It took about 2 months of this routine for me to get outta my rut, but it worked and now that I'm better I just can't understand how I got so messed up. Nowadays if a chick breaks up with me I don't even sweat it at all. I think I like being single better anyways, get to do what I want when I want. At night I still have problems goin to sleep but thats because i'm thinking about a show I just watched on discovery channel, or thinking about how I let some newb shoot me down in the MA lol. Another thing I did was I turned into a real bad Ahole lol, I figured I didn't really need to be hanging out with the ppl I had been so I got rid of all them, and I quit wondering what other people thought, most other people are too stupid to be assosiated with me anyways lol... I think allot of times when we are depressed or low its because we let our brains lie to us and tell us stuff that isn't true, and we think everybody else in the world is fine and we're messed up. The fact is, everybody has problems, good at some things bad at others. Do what I did, just say F everybody else and start worrying about yourself and quit trying to please others. Find something you like to do and keep busy, really really busy. Become a workaholic if you must. As long as your busy working you won't have the time to be depressed. I'm serious, try not and have any spare time, if you don't work weekends find something to do all day on saturday and sunday too. I keep myself so busy nowadays I maybe get 4 hours of sleep a night if I'm lucky. If I can do it I know you can bud. Lastly don't sweat the small stuff bro, there will be plenty of chicks, especially once you get older and make a lil money, they come a dime a dozen I promise you, especially if your going to be working for the fire dept. I have known allot of girls that have had things for firemen, i would bet the farm that firemen get more tail then any other proffession in the world. Once your older you'll start trying to figure out ways to get the chicks to leave you alone so you can play AH2 lol. And friends blah who need em, all friends end up doing is pissing you off in one way or another... The best friends in the world are hot chicks, go to a club make friends with a hot girl, not one you actually wanna hook up with but one that you can talk to, after a week or two she will start hookin you up with her friends, thats one thing chicks love doing, hookin up there friends.