An Uncle once removed (er... My Dad's cousin?) was ALMOST that guy... He mixed some sort of medication (he was in his 60s taking various old-guy medications) with alcohol and ran into a cop writing reports on the side of the road. Only sheer luck and "grace of God" saved the cop's life. There are few men who have more respect for cops than my Uncle, yet he'd damn near killed one while DUI.
He "got what he deserved", and undoubtedly got a better deal than some thought he should get. He got jail time, a hefty fine, and a felony conviction that as part of the bargain was downgraded to a misdemeanor after a bunch of years of clean living. He'd do anything to "take it back", and he's thankful he still has a life after nearly taking the life of one of our public servants. He was an avid hunter his entire life, and the felony conviction hurt worse than any fine or amount of jail time. So...
Why do I bring this up? Because I bet that "ex-Airman" hasn't spent one day since the crime wishing he hadn't been such a damned fool.
Sandman, you may think I'm a fool or worse, but although I'm a VERY firm believer that there are few things in this world worse than killing a cop, I've also seen a similiar situation from the perspective of someone who had a family member make the same mistake, commit the same crime, with nearly the same results, and I know that in many cases, since nothing can un-do the act, the perpetrator of such a heinous crime would probably do ANYTHING to earn forgiveness.
If some drunk had run over my Dad in his 30 years in the CHP, would I have been able to forgive him? I don't know. The wheels of justice turn slowly sometimes and from the articles it sounds like it's going to be a tough process due in part to the apparent double-standard being applied (a dui off-duty cop who killed a kid got a virtual slap on the wrist comparatively) and my only hope is that you can make it through the process without letting hate and revenge capture your life. That's why I took the time to write this down, even though it's not my life to be forgiven.