Wierd.. at least from my perspective. I've had an interesting life, done a buncha neat stuff, been to some pretty off-the wall places.
I've never 'needed' a gun out of uniform.
I've no predeliction to 'carry', never felt threatened. I have run into situations where common sense said 'move... NOW' and I've followed my instincts. Still safe, still breathing. Kept my family safe, raised a kid, never had a weapon in the house.
Now, I've got a pretty fun new hobby. It started semi-serious, got serious, now it's semi-serious again; collecting fine old military weapons and selling 'em is an outright blast and it's allowed me to 'finish' de-liberalizing my kid, armed the key members of my extended family, taught 'em all skills that could be important one day.. but still; here; now; I don't need to 'carry'.
What I found absolutely surprising as hell is the reaction some folks have to having control of a weapon; how different folks 'absorb' the power.
One day on the way to the range the guy I was riding with is taking side streets, winding his way indirectly to the range. I asked him whats up.. he says 'Ive never been through 'this' part of town with a gun before'. 'This' was a black neighborhood. I wigged.. I don't think I've hollered at my kid so loud as I was with this guy..
'Power'. Scary stuff in the wrong hands. Frankly, I don't think the guy was wired quite right from birth, he's made wierd flying decisons too so I souldn't have been too surprised, nonetheless I was pissed that he'd haul me along on his lil exploration, putting my good name and my prized weapons at an elevated risk for a 'thrill ride'.
When I've got a weapon under immediate personal control I'm more alert to my surroundings, I'm cautious about 'encounters', I'm disposed to NOT get confrontational, I avoid any situtaion that could result in a 'challenge'. In short, I'm a cocky loudmouth without a worry in the world when I'm 'clean'. Put a piece under my control and I tend to fade back, become less of a wize bellybutton and stay the hell away from marginal situtations.
Looking at what I've just typed, I'm suddenly wondering if there's something wrong with the way I'M wired?