<S> Gunna miss ya JOACH1M.
No matter how good a stick you are, you can always be overwhelmed beat down and killed. I get alot of fun out of fighting 1 on 1, then I get some more fun as my SA let's me see the situation change and then I get to decide whether to stay and fight to the death OR try to egress, if only to live as long as I can. If I find myself in an overwhelming situation where the only option is a fight to the death from a disadvantage, then I try and figure out what I did wrong. Doesn't mean it wasn't fun, but it probably wasn't smart.
Be kind to yourself, start by looking at how you interact with the game not how the game interacts with you, because, it doesn't.