The opposite of anger is patience, per se. My guess is you upped from capped fields, rush into furballs from below, and love getting suckered into blowing your 'E' right off?
If so, take some time. Plan on one hope lasting 30+ minutes. Gain 15K before you enter a fight; don't John Wayne it by saving tards low-n-slow on the deck (let them be bait); no shame in egressing, resetting and coming in smart; stalk your kill, don't get into a feeding frenzy; keep your 'E' up.
Just something to consider.
Boo