I suck in every aircraft except a buff and I've been here for a decade... 
What's sad....is that isn't sarcasm...
Getting killed all the time (we don't really get killed) or killing someone else doesn't really mean a thing. It is how you feel about what your doing that really counts. Good fights, hanging with friends, staying out of trouble.................. Was not that many years back that you had to leave the house to have as much fun.