OK, gentlemen. Last words in this issue. I am posting this bot in a new thread and here because I think it is an important issue.
First of all I want to make clear that I am writing this as clear as I can, slowly, and with a english-spanish dictionary in front of me.
I want to state first that I know where I am and why am I here. I know I am a passionate guy that sometimes overreact but I am too a guy that is completely mistook in many of my posts.
HO posts,and 1.2K kill posts were done in the way they were taken. Things that piss me off so hard that I explode. OK then.
But other posts are completely misread. EZmode comes to mind here as a good example.
See, I am spanish and my knowledge of english is limited. I dont know how to express myself sometimes, and for a guy that ALWAYS wants to communicate his ideas and feelings it is a very bad experience, believe me.
When EZmode discussion first came to AH, and when CT was discussed , I said the same as I did in the open letter for HTC thread. But the words were others, as in the latter I took nearly 90 minutes of my time to post and refine it. The message was the same, as my status in this matter, EZ mode is not of my taste and if it was mixed in MA with no Realmode arena, then I would leave, but to return as soon as a realmode arena was created in AH. With no hard feelings, and NO threat. It is only a statement, my position and opinion.
Many took my posts as a "I quit" threat. It wasnt a threat, but only a statement. But here everybody took the "i quit" thing but not everything else in those posts. (HT did it too, I know because he told me that I do the "i quit" too many times).
I had to put a open letter for HTC and everyone saluted me...when i was putting EXACTLY the same message as in the previous posts...what is the difference?...that when I write english by myself my expressions are the ones I KNOW to write. Pyro told me that some of my posts sound real threatening, while in many of them I only try to say what I think.
I threatened to quit once, yes. SOmething stopped me the last moment. I had 5 days that when I took a Fw190A8 over 350IAS and 3G the wings ALWAYS broke. The pissing off situation made me go ballistic and I posted that I was leaving.
Since then I NEVER threatened to leave Aces High. EZmode thing was only a statement, my position and opinion about a possible development in AH that I wont share, but I always made clear that I would return as soon as I shared further development. Is that a threat? I dont think so, still many mistook those posts, as I said above.
In many of my posts I may sound harsh but In MANY of them it is only a language barrier. I try to explain what I feel and think, PUTTING IN CAPS THE THINGS I THINK ARE IMPORTANT (

). Some people think that this is harsh. It isnt

at least it isnt intended to be.
Said that, about 1.04. First of all I want to tell you something that may help you in understanding why dont I like the new FM.
I started some days ago a new squad intended to help and train newbies in MA. I started working with some of them in MA, and putting up a webpage with hints and help (thanks Staga). I have currently all but british planes commented (only LW posted, tho) and ready to be posted.
The new FM has killed all my work on those comments, and has killed me as CO of a training squadron. Why? because I cant train others in how to fly if I by myself dont know to do it!!!...Erg/Jg26 has no more future right now, and as a thing in wich I have put so much illusion, work, and thinking, to see all the work wasted is very sad.
this is the first reason.
Second, I am a E-fighting guy, and love BnZ. This new FM has killed most of the effectiveness of these ways of flying, so I must relearn and reeducate my flying from the start. While learning to fly takes long and is hard, to FORGET what you have learned and relearn with new rules is VERY annoying. Plus, I dont like TnB and new FM favours a lot TnB, much more than previous FM. That is the second reason.
And while I was quite decent guy to fly in the defensive, the new FM makes speed bleeding a real pain, even with full rudder use, so making painfully difficult to force overshoots and reverse tables in planes as Fw190...and this is the third reason.
I like that the new FMs are more accurate and realistic. I agree in making AH as accurate as possible. I love EVERY ONE of the other new features. But ,while I agree that new FM is accurate realistic and neccesary I DONT LIKE IT. I think it is understandable.
But in
no way I am saying that new FM is porked, or not accurate. Read my posts from avobe I say
that I dont like it!.
Will take time, yes and maybe I would get used to it somehow. The new FM is NOT the reason because I am thinking in leaving. The reaction of the people to my opinions is what does it.
I tried new FM for a good while (maybe 4 hours), when someone said in #1 channel
"new FM rocks". I answered
"I disagree, E-fighting is now REALLY difficult, I dont like it.
Next 4 lines in buffer had the word "whiner" inserted in it.
So I tried to state why dont I like the FM. Each time I tried it there was a "whiner" answer (most times multiple of them) in the buffer for me.
Well I decided to shut up and keep on flying. After 1 hour or so StSanta said in #1 that he didnt like the new FM. before I could say "I agree" there was one line calling him WHINER. That was 5 seconds, not more, before Stsanta's line and mine. And someone was faster to call him "whiner" than mine to say "I agree".
Of course then the flamewar started. One community versus two guys with an opinion different than theirs. I tried to explain why didnt I like the new FM again, but, as before, the flamewar was heating even more with each try.
And then funked came in and called us "luftwhiners"...and I went ballistic. That was when I said in #1 that for a sim that is now 50% more expensive that what it was when I first came, and is putting serious strain in my money, I didnt know if It was worth the flamewar I was getting from everyone there only because I think different than them.
(note that in NO MOMENT I said that I was going to leave due the new FM thing).
Then the hammer fell on me. From "good bye" and "take care" lines until "lol you kid go home" thing. And then I came here and posted my post on Nath11's thread.
I dont say I go out because the new FM, never said it and would never NEVER go because that.
I say that I am weighting if it is worth for me paying to have such disgusts as the one I had yersterday night.
Still Funked says "give the new FM a 2 week try". I was WANTING To do it, I WANT to do it.
But this thing has NOTHING To do with the new FM, but with the thing I felt yesterday on MA whith everyone jumping on Stsanta and me, and I later saw in this board (for example hblair "quote" thing was a hurting pain in the moral state I was)
All this makes me think that if I am good for this sim and if this sim is good for me. If this is an "I quit" threat, then ok, it is.
I talked a bit with HT later. I wont say what we talked, but I ended really morally broken and very worried...
A bit later I was talking with pyro,too on MA. I wont say what we talked, neither, only I can say THANK YOU PYRO...you helped me a lot, and I know you must have been VEERY busy while talking with me, and I much appreciate your words. Lots of good advices in your words...so THANKS!
I only want to say this to the community:
For all you think that the sheep that doesnt bleat at the same thime and with the same strenght than the other sheeps in the flock deserves to be clubbed...YOU are the reason that I am thinking in going or staying. This is NO FM matter, it is simply that the flames I got yesterday really burned me out.
For HTC:
1.04 plain and simply ROCKS. From the FM to the Ju88. Other thing is that I like or dislike some things, but that is another thing completely different. 1.04 is way more realistic than 1.03 was and THAT deserves a SALUTE and a hat off.
And thanks both HT and Pyro for your time in private channels. I know you both were very busy, still you had time for me.
My respect for both you and HTC as a whole can only increase with each day that passes by...
But when I get so emotionally involved with a sim I think that its time to think seriously in what is the best solution for everyone...
I dont want to go. Never wanted. But if this problem somehow doesnt solve then I guess that for everyone (community, HTC and me), the best is me leaving aces high.
I hope to have expressed myself clearly and I pray for no misinterpretations happening.
Have had enough of that for a long,long time

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[This message has been edited by RAM (edited 09-09-2000).]