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Title: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on August 30, 2013, 05:30:54 PM
Just thought I'd drop in and let everyone know that I'm still around.

Life has been....it's been rough, and after a few stupid attempts I checked into a place...still a rocky road to recovery. Each day is a battle, but I'm doing what I can to push through.

A huge thank you to some of the guys from my squadron (Dickweed Heavy Bomber Group) for lending me an ear and advice as well as sitting on the phone with me.

As much crap as we give each other on here, I miss you guys (yeah yeah laugh it up).

If you're religious I'd appreciate it if you threw a prayer this way.

I'll try to check in, but it's hard without a computer.

<S>
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Zacherof on August 30, 2013, 05:37:47 PM
Just thought I'd drop in and let everyone know that I'm still around.

Life has been....it's been rough, and after a few stupid attempts I checked into a place...still a rocky road to recovery. Each day is a battle, but I'm doing what I can to push through.

A huge thank you to some of the guys from my squadron (Dickweed Heavy Bomber Group) for lending me an ear and advice as well as sitting on the phone with me.

As much crap as we give each other on here, I miss you guys (yeah yeah laugh it up).

If you're religious I'd appreciate it if you threw a prayer this way.

I'll try to check in, but it's hard without a computer.

<S>
:salute
Hope all gets better
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: ozrocker on August 30, 2013, 05:51:06 PM
 :salute Marine,
Hang tough man :pray




                                                                                                                                                      Oz
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: RedBull1 on August 30, 2013, 06:00:28 PM
 :salute Marine feel free to send PM's my way if you ever need an ear :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: whiteman on August 30, 2013, 06:04:12 PM
 :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: GScholz on August 30, 2013, 06:07:34 PM
I hope you're OK my friend... If not, I hope you will be soon.  :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: ink on August 30, 2013, 06:24:15 PM
trust me when I say, no matter how bad life gets.....Life is worth living.

I hope you learn that through this adversity.

always remember "That which does not kill us makes us stronger" :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: SIK1 on August 30, 2013, 07:26:42 PM
 :salute

 :pray
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: steely07 on August 30, 2013, 07:30:19 PM
Good to hear from you Mate, hang in there, it will work out.  :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: HL117 on August 30, 2013, 08:50:45 PM



 :pray



 :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Scherf on August 30, 2013, 08:58:37 PM
Hang in there man.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: HGBuck on August 31, 2013, 12:19:48 PM
Great to hear from you M8! Wishing you all the best and hope to see you in the skies soon!  :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Mongoose on August 31, 2013, 03:25:10 PM
    :salute  Hand in there.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on August 31, 2013, 07:26:43 PM
Great to hear from you M8! Wishing you all the best and hope to see you in the skies soon!  :salute

I'd love to, but it won't be possible for a long time.

While I was away with my military unit my fiancée cheated on me (she only did it one and told me the day I came home), I forgave her, it freaked her out that I was so calm, she then kicked me out a few days later, I lived out of my car for a few days before moving in with a friend and sleeping on his floor for a little over a month.

She had said she wanted time to herself, but a week after our anniversary and less than a year from our wedding she started dating someone else, her mom made her go to therapy where she was diagnosed with postpartum depression and PTSD from losing the baby, which caused her to act out. She told her therapist she only wanted to have a cold with me, she hates alcoholics, and the guy she is with drinks everyday from the moment he wakes up to the moment he goes to sleep, and yet I'm stillpushed away.

She kept my computer etc. and only gave me my clothes, then two weeks later my car blew a gasket and the following Monday I lost my civilian job.

So in three weeks I lost the love of my life, my home, my car, my job and my dog. I used the dog as a void filler for when we list the baby, so it hurt a lot, but I finally got my dog back about a week and a half ago.

It's been rough.

That's it in a nutshell. Hard to do this on a phone.

No money, no computer, no job, no car...this...this sucks. Heh.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: GScholz on August 31, 2013, 07:34:59 PM
 :huh   How can she just take your puter and stuff?  From what you write she sounds like a complete nutcase, and a heartless one at that.  I'd have the cops on her doorstep to collect my stuff, and find someone else.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: EskimoJoe on August 31, 2013, 07:49:05 PM
:huh   How can she just take your puter and stuff?  From what you write she sounds like a complete nutcase, and a heartless one at that.  I'd have the cops on her doorstep to collect my stuff, and find someone else.

Too bad it is NEVER that simple.

Marine!

The hardest battle many face today is coming home!

You are not alone! If you need resources, talk to us! We can help.

Stay frosty, and always look forward.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on September 01, 2013, 12:25:34 AM
I meant to say"have a child with me" earlier lol.

And I can't get my stuff because it costs $97.50 to file, even with my invoices.

She wants to give me my stuff, but her mother won't let her.

I'm already 300 in the hole, and come Tuesday I'll be living out of my car. Gonna have to baby it to a parking lot and do that for a while until I can find a job.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: ink on September 01, 2013, 01:45:01 AM
I meant to say"have a child with me" earlier lol.

And I can't get my stuff because it costs $97.50 to file, even with my invoices.

She wants to give me my stuff, but her mother won't let her.

I'm already 300 in the hole, and come Tuesday I'll be living out of my car. Gonna have to baby it to a parking lot and do that for a while until I can find a job.

crap man...I wish I had words that would help....I could tell ya a sad story, but that wont make it better......

all I know is life is worth living even Homeless(been there done that for a long time)....

life has a way of kicking us in the balls.....that will not define you...what will define you is how you cope.

keep your head up man, a day above ground is a good day.


edit

if ya want to talk to someone who understands....PM me bud
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: guncrasher on September 01, 2013, 02:34:33 AM
I meant to say"have a child with me" earlier lol.

And I can't get my stuff because it costs $97.50 to file, even with my invoices.

She wants to give me my stuff, but her mother won't let her.

I'm already 300 in the hole, and come Tuesday I'll be living out of my car. Gonna have to baby it to a parking lot and do that for a while until I can find a job.


every court has somebody that will help you and also there's a judge that will waive the filing fees if you cannot afford them.  go check with court facilitator or whatever they call it in your county.


semp
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: rabbidrabbit on September 01, 2013, 05:39:23 AM
I'd love to, but it won't be possible for a long time.

She kept my computer etc. and only gave me my clothes, then two weeks later my car blew a gasket and the following Monday I lost my civilian job.

So in three weeks I lost the love of my life, my home, my car, my job and my dog. I used the dog as a void filler for when we list the baby, so it hurt a lot, but I finally got my dog back about a week and a half ago.

It's been rough.

That's it in a nutshell. Hard to do this on a phone.

No money, no computer, no job, no car...this...this sucks. Heh.

Sounds like you have a future in country music!

Get a job, any job to get something going.  Then get a better job and spend each week building yourself back up.  You don't have to worry about that worthless person.  Consider it a mixed blessing and move forward.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Slate on September 01, 2013, 09:42:01 AM

   :pray Prayers sent your way

  I too have gone through infedelity. I had to ask my own 2 year old son questions to find out for sure. I left her and never went back and eventually got custody of my son. It hurts like hell at first but with time fades slightly. We give up some of ourselves trying to please others that don't appreciate it anyway. Be youself and never put up with others BS.
     Pick yourself up by your bootstraps Marine.  :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: texasmom on September 02, 2013, 02:16:26 AM
Thank you for everything that you do, I appreciate you so much!
I would really love to help you in your job search if you allow me. I'm PMing you my phone number and email address.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: chrishy on September 02, 2013, 05:07:16 AM
 :salute

If there's anything we can do for you let us know.  Prayers for your situation MarineUS!
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: scott66 on September 02, 2013, 06:00:47 AM
 :salute pm me I will help....
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: bortas1 on September 02, 2013, 11:47:13 AM
 :salute well all I can say is we support ya. and wish you a speedy recovery.  :aok
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Bodhi on September 02, 2013, 12:23:17 PM
Good luck.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: FLOOB on September 02, 2013, 12:49:20 PM
I can relate brother. I once lost my girl, my job and my car broke all in the same week and my nearest family was on the other side of the country. But thats all in the past. You'll get through this darkness and it will all be in the past for you too.

Never give up.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on September 02, 2013, 01:52:20 PM
Yeah...the hardest part is pushing forward, because it feels like I'm not getting anywhere.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: coombz on September 02, 2013, 02:46:31 PM
couldn't have happened to a more deserving guy  :aok

things will get better with time Marine, keep your chin up.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: SEraider on September 02, 2013, 02:48:12 PM
Yeah...the hardest part is pushing forward, because it feels like I'm not getting anywhere.

We're with you all the way to help you push forward!  Stay strong!  :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: EskimoJoe on September 02, 2013, 04:13:55 PM
Yeah...the hardest part is pushing forward, because it feels like I'm not getting anywhere.

I've been there!

Remember this : Each day forward is one day closer to the day that you finally grasp the lip at the edge of the hole you find yourself in, and one day closer to pulling yourself out with each and every one of us here at your back, helping to push you out!

We got you, brother! It may not come in a matter of days or weeks, but it will come!
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on September 02, 2013, 07:52:20 PM
I hope so. I'm tired of pushing. Even Marines need R&R every now and then.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: GScholz on September 02, 2013, 08:24:27 PM
If war couldn't break you then this won't either. In the long run it will make you stronger. If she is no longer the same woman that you used to love then you must face that, and fight for what is yours and what you believe is right. Don't let her, or her family, use your feelings against you.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: SEraider on September 02, 2013, 09:59:40 PM
I hope so. I'm tired of pushing. Even Marines need R&R every now and then.

I have an in-law that served in Afghanistan in the Marines as a Sniper.  He was never the same when he got back.  The mother is very concerned for him.  He's become morbid since his return.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on September 02, 2013, 10:27:21 PM
I have an in-law that served in Afghanistan in the Marines as a Sniper.  He was never the same when he got back.  The mother is very concerned for him.  He's become morbid since his return.

It happens...ask any vet here. He needs his battle buddies...he needs to talk to them and a professional.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: SEraider on September 03, 2013, 10:47:48 AM
It happens...ask any vet here. He needs his battle buddies...he needs to talk to them and a professional.

I have not spoken to him and so that I can understand:  Is it guilt he may feel that he is not back there with his buddies?  He chose not to re-enlist.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: coombz on September 03, 2013, 02:38:53 PM
I have not spoken to him and so that I can understand:  Is it guilt he may feel that he is not back there with his buddies?  He chose not to re-enlist.

i am not an expert and there are likely a multitude of reasons for why the guy could be traumatized...but my first iinstinct is to say that being a sniper can f**k you up

a long time ago now my friend came back from iraq having served as a sniper and he went through over a year of trouble with the police/drugs/alcohol before he ended upgetting the help he needed and becoming something like his old self again

in his case he just had too many unpleasant memories and feelings that he needed to block himself away from. and the unfortunate side effect was doing crazy, unstable toejam while under the influence which kept getting him locked up and creating more feelings of guilt
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Zoney on September 03, 2013, 03:26:50 PM
Marine,  :salute, good luck to you sir.

Do you live in Georgia still sir?

I am in Phoenix.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on September 04, 2013, 11:11:56 AM
Yes, I still reside in this humid place lol.

And as previously stated it is more than likely a plethora of things bothering him all at once. Even if he thinks nothing is wrong he needs to talk to someone. It never hurts.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Banshee7 on September 04, 2013, 11:34:08 AM
Sending prayers and good luck your way Marine!  Wish I could find some words that would help, but I'll leave that to the man above!

#S#



Josh
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Gaidin on September 04, 2013, 03:39:37 PM
Marine,

You dont know me, but we are brothers.  U.S. Army myself, and I live in GA.  PM me, I know some people here at the Logistics base, and I know of some people here who might can give you some temporary help.   I don't have money, or I would give it, but I will help if I can in any other way.  

PS:  I only get to check this forum about once a day right now.  So if you PM me, give me a little bit to respond.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: ink on September 04, 2013, 03:43:40 PM
great group of guys here, excluding the few meatsticks of course.....

Marine...... hope a new day has brought a better mind frame. :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on September 04, 2013, 05:38:31 PM
You live in Albany???

And lol @the meat stick comment.

This is why I love the AH community. No other gaming group is this close. Even after butting heads we all make sure everyone is good to go.

I try to keep my mind occupied by working outside the house I'm staying at and doing other stuff. I still get in a bad way at least once a day, and I can't sleep, but my friends keep around when I get like that. A fellow Marine buddy has actually been staying here at nights to help me get through. He'll go skateboard with me or something else to distract my mind.

Each day is a battle...one I'm tired of fighting, but they won't let me stop moving forward.

It's been strange breaking down the way I have...even talking about it on here, but this forum was always an online home for me. I'm fortunate to have the friends I do. my next challenge is finding a ride to therapy tomorrow. I had to miss my clinical yesterday because I couldn't get one.

They want to make sure I'm doing ok medically because I've lost over thirty pounds since this started, but in the last week my friends have been force feeding me lol. I just take a bite and get sick.

It's a lot to deal with, and some days I call it quits, but then my friends snatch me up and force me to keep marching.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: ink on September 04, 2013, 05:49:18 PM
You live in Albany???

And lol @the meat stick comment.

This is why I love the AH community. No other gaming group is this close. Even after butting heads we all make sure everyone is good to go.

I try to keep my mind occupied by working outside the house I'm staying at and doing other stuff. I still get in a bad way at least once a day, and I can't sleep, but my friends keep around when I get like that. A fellow Marine buddy has actually been staying here at nights to help me get through. He'll go skateboard with me or something else to distract my mind.

Each day is a battle...one I'm tired of fighting, but they won't let me stop moving forward.

It's been strange breaking down the way I have...even talking about it on here, but this forum was always an online home for me. I'm fortunate to have the friends I do. my next challenge is finding a ride to therapy tomorrow. I had to miss my clinical yesterday because I couldn't get one.

They want to make sure I'm doing ok medically because I've lost over thirty pounds since this started, but in the last week my friends have been force feeding me lol. I just take a bite and get sick.

It's a lot to deal with, and some days I call it quits, but then my friends snatch me up and force me to keep marching.
:D

No I don't live in Albany(if that question was on me) still in the North of NH

I agree this BBS and group of people are like a second home for me as well....

you can see how tight nit it is when someone is hurting.


there has been many times I wanted to end it..came real close a couple times, the wife walked in on me with my Sks to my head one time,...... I am glad I am still here....I know at least things can change for the better...if I am gone that is it....
things haven't gotten "better" for me...but I now feel hope and that is something I am not used to.....

you will get past this.....fight on man...fight on. :salute

Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Dichotomy on September 04, 2013, 08:53:40 PM
Hang in there Marine.. you have our thoughts and prayers brother  :salute
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Midway on September 04, 2013, 08:59:32 PM
I'd love to, but it won't be possible for a long time.

While I was away with my military unit my fiancée cheated on me (she only did it one and told me the day I came home), I forgave her, it freaked her out that I was so calm, she then kicked me out a few days later, I lived out of my car for a few days before moving in with a friend and sleeping on his floor for a little over a month.

She had said she wanted time to herself, but a week after our anniversary and less than a year from our wedding she started dating someone else, her mom made her go to therapy where she was diagnosed with postpartum depression and PTSD from losing the baby, which caused her to act out. She told her therapist she only wanted to have a cold with me, she hates alcoholics, and the guy she is with drinks everyday from the moment he wakes up to the moment he goes to sleep, and yet I'm stillpushed away.

She kept my computer etc. and only gave me my clothes, then two weeks later my car blew a gasket and the following Monday I lost my civilian job.

So in three weeks I lost the love of my life, my home, my car, my job and my dog. I used the dog as a void filler for when we list the baby, so it hurt a lot, but I finally got my dog back about a week and a half ago.

It's been rough.

That's it in a nutshell. Hard to do this on a phone.

No money, no computer, no job, no car...this...this sucks. Heh.

I wish there be a way to help players/pilots/people in this situation.  All the stupid stuff people raise money for on the internet when there are good people with real needs that can use a helping hand when they hit a low point in their life.  I hope you bounce back soon.

 :salute


PS:
Really? http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/infinitap/neverending-nightmares?ref=home_spotlight :rolleyes:
Really? http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/mightyno9/mighty-no-9?ref=home_popular :rolleyes:
Really? http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/1285695829/omnivore-salta-family-recipe-that-makes-food-taste?ref=home_popular  :rolleyes:
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: guncrasher on September 04, 2013, 11:06:06 PM
I wish there be a way to help players/pilots/people in this situation.  All the stupid stuff people raise money for on the internet when there are good people with real needs that can use a helping hand when they hit a low point in their life.  I hope you bounce back soon.

 :salute


PS:
Really? http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/infinitap/neverending-nightmares?ref=home_spotlight :rolleyes:
Really? http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/mightyno9/mighty-no-9?ref=home_popular :rolleyes:
Really? http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/1285695829/omnivore-salta-family-recipe-that-makes-food-taste?ref=home_popular  :rolleyes:

oh boy, how I wish we had sarcasm font on the internet.


semp
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Gaidin on September 05, 2013, 08:15:11 AM
You live in Albany???

And lol @the meat stick comment.

This is why I love the AH community. No other gaming group is this close. Even after butting heads we all make sure everyone is good to go.

I try to keep my mind occupied by working outside the house I'm staying at and doing other stuff. I still get in a bad way at least once a day, and I can't sleep, but my friends keep around when I get like that. A fellow Marine buddy has actually been staying here at nights to help me get through. He'll go skateboard with me or something else to distract my mind.

Each day is a battle...one I'm tired of fighting, but they won't let me stop moving forward.

It's been strange breaking down the way I have...even talking about it on here, but this forum was always an online home for me. I'm fortunate to have the friends I do. my next challenge is finding a ride to therapy tomorrow. I had to miss my clinical yesterday because I couldn't get one.

They want to make sure I'm doing ok medically because I've lost over thirty pounds since this started, but in the last week my friends have been force feeding me lol. I just take a bite and get sick.

It's a lot to deal with, and some days I call it quits, but then my friends snatch me up and force me to keep marching.

Not in Albany, but not too far.  I have some friends that are civilian employees over there.  Also know a few Marines that are stationed there.  I dont know what part of GA your in, but I'm more than happy to help you in any way that I can.  Like I said, I don't have money to give, but I can talk/listen and depending on how far away you are, I may can even give a ride if its needed. 

I have been there, I know its not easy.  I still have some rough days, but you can get past it and I know this from experience. 

Let me know if there is anything I can do.

Gaidin
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on September 05, 2013, 11:58:49 AM
Ink, I had something very similar happen with someone walking in.

And that's awesome. I'm only about an hour from Albany (Thomasville).
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Gaidin on September 05, 2013, 12:00:28 PM
Ink, I had something very similar happen with someone walking in.

And that's awesome. I'm only about an hour from Albany (Thomasville).

Well like I said, let me know if I can help in some way.  Im in Douglas, about an hour or so east of Tifton, hour 45-2hours from Albany depending on traffic.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on September 05, 2013, 12:05:35 PM
If they have any openings I'd be ecstatic to apply.

I'm certified to run a warehouse if it means anything.

I don't have a car right now, but I'd find a way to get there.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: VonMessa on September 05, 2013, 12:11:04 PM
I'd fix your car if you were closer.  It's a long ride from Philly, though  :cry

You can view your circumstances as a series of unfortunate events OR a blessing before you got too deeply involved with a nut job.  

Either way, you have a chance to make a fresh start, which is not an offer that many folks get.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: MarineUS on September 05, 2013, 03:43:45 PM
Lol. Kinda have no choice.
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: VonMessa on September 06, 2013, 10:21:49 AM
Lol. Kinda have no choice.

Hey.

You could be in his predicament AND be saddled with a nut job.  If she was carrying your child, you would still be forced to deal with said nut job for 18 years.

At least you are still young and sexy, ya jarhead  :aok
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: GScholz on September 06, 2013, 10:37:01 AM
You could be in his predicament AND be saddled with a nut job AND live in Somalia...  ;)
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Midway on September 06, 2013, 11:52:16 AM
You could be in his predicament AND be saddled with a nut job AND live in Somalia...  ;)

...and be 80 years old, have shingles, cancer, and heart disease, and be almost blind and deaf. :)

You are a lucky man to not have to deal with those things. :old:

A lucky man indeed. :old:
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Dragon on September 06, 2013, 12:01:22 PM
...and be 80 years old, have shingles, cancer, and heart disease, and be almost blind and deaf. :)




When describing yourself, please remember to include stupid.


Thank You

Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: GScholz on September 06, 2013, 12:11:12 PM
Really, what's your problem Dragon?
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: VonMessa on September 06, 2013, 12:53:28 PM
Really, what's your problem Dragon?

Two things:

He has an unnerving habit of pointing out the truth

Hi keeps insisting upon quoting people that I have on my ignore list so that I have to see their drivel, anyway.

Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: ink on September 06, 2013, 12:55:10 PM
Two things:

He has an unnerving habit of pointing out the truth

Hi keeps insisting upon quoting people that I have on my ignore list so that I have to see their drivel, anyway.




 :rofl :rofl :rofl :rofl

 :aok
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Midway on September 06, 2013, 01:05:22 PM

When describing yourself, please remember to include stupid.


Thank You



 :)
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: Dragon on September 06, 2013, 01:10:22 PM
Really, what's your problem Dragon?

What Von said, and, just look at Midways response.....I poke and he smiles like the Pillsbury Dough Boy. 

Who has the problem really besides you?
Title: Re: I'm alive
Post by: GScholz on September 06, 2013, 01:17:34 PM
Two things:

He has an unnerving habit of pointing out the truth

Hi keeps insisting upon quoting people that I have on my ignore list so that I have to see their drivel, anyway.



 :aok