Good luck Nash, you are gonna need it.
Though I think posting your admission here was probably a fairly big step to take, these guys are right, we arent 'real'.
When you are lying in a pool of your own vomit in the corner, shivering, sweating, and hoping your heart keeps on ticking, none of us are any good to you at all, all the best wishes and prayers in the world are no good to you in that situation, you need a real live person who cares, close by.
Talk to your family, friends, GP....whoever, just talk to them, let them know what is going on in your world, maybe they can then help out in some way.
Having said that, I too wish you the best.
Junkies discust me, ( reminds me too much of how weak and pathetic I once was too) , but ex-junkies have nothing but my respect. Its a long, hard road, and only you can walk it, there are no shortcuts, and no one will pick you up and give you a lift, but if you have what it takes to get past the **** sandwich turnoff, ham and cheese will be waiting when you reach the end.
Once again, good luck my friend, hope to see you at the other end of your road.
Blue