68, communities can't thrive when it's members isolate themselves, and don't allow other members to share (at least to a limited extent) in the "Human Experience" that that shapes each of us. Instead, it becomes a sterile place where information is exchanged, and nothing more. For some, that's enough.
That being said, this community thrives because folks like you are willing to share in the hopes it will help others. It takes courage to open up in a forum like this, but we're glad you followed through on your conviction to do so.