Originally posted by DREDIOCK
Maybe but perfectly accurate. Cept maybe the music
Its called survivors guilt
Something about Hallmark. Is it usually carries a ring of truth to it.
Thats why Hallmark is so good.
and I'd like to think that most families when they see a man who is obviously uset about something like that would rallly around him in that manner.
Wouldnt think much personally of the family that didnt
think about it. How would you feel if say. You were in my father in laws shoes and cept for a freakish twist of fate. Or because you were standing one place and two feet next to you someone else died instead of you
OR someone Gave up their life so that you could live.
Looking back at it in the twighlight of your life
Wouldnt you pause and think if you were worthy?
Wouldnt you always wonder what made you worthy enough to get to live your life, get married, have children when the other guy didnt?
Coulda been you but wasnt. What made you so special that you were allowed to have a life and he or they didnt?
Wouldnt you also wonder if you had lead your life good enough?
I think alot of vets who have witnissed this sort of thing feel alot the same way about it. Thats why you alwyas see thenm giving credit to the guys that didnt make it. The ones they left behind.
In closing I find myself thinking about an article I read after the release of SPR.
It was written by the wife of a man who had served and fought in WWII.
She wrote how they went to see the movie. And of the deafining silence of the ride home. And how she realised how he was reliving that time as looked over at him and saw tears as they flowed down his face.
She spoke of how she reached over and held his hand and said to him "I had no idea"
And his reply
"Welcome to my world"
I never usually open myself up like this, especially on the Internet, but what Dred says is correct, due to my experiences, I take 1 day at a time, I have 1 med to take usually every 4 hours to keep me calm and one at night time to stop me from dreaming, Hard to describe really, I feel guilty almost all of the time, sometimes I even feel happy, It's like carrying a burden that doesn't get lighter.
For the record, I've never seen Saving private Ryan or any of the others that are doing the rounds, I go and see romantic comedies and Harry potter movies with my wife. I don't want to see various war related movies, I wouldn't want to subject my wife to all my emotions in that respect.
Nothing wrong with these movies, I think they tell great stories and these guys should be remembered. They're probably good for a lot of people who want to understand what fighting for your life is all about.