Urchin, you're an OK guy. You fit in with all the rest of us at the Con.......... oops... maybe you're NOT OK! Maybe all of us have our LM (Life Model) PORKED!!!
Laugh.
Life is what happens to you when you're busily planning something else.
I've had a recent "near miss" in my life... a real "no toejamter"... and let me tell you I agree fully with Elfenwolf. (See, Elf? There we go agreeing again!)
"I appreciate every drop of rain, every gust of wind, every ray of sunshine and every sunrise and sunset because I believe my time here is a gift"
Believe it buddy. Every time I wake up in the morning I rejoice. Still here for another day... can't get much better than that!
Remember that recent movie "life is beautiful" about the Italian Jew in the Concentration Camp with his boy?
Life IS beautiful... even when it sucks.

Without the lows you'll never truly appreciate the highs.
Anyway, if ya wanna talk to someone, let me know.