sort of like a Pharisee.... heyzoos would not approve.... but like most in here who spout off how much of a follower of heyzoos they are ...you are only a follower of the practice of heyzoos..if it fits your current state of mind....
The real reason for your stalking finally comes out....my Faith. Gotcha. September 21 1997 at roughly 10 pm I began my walk with Christ. I haven't always been perfect, no one is, that's what God's Grace is for. I have tried to always follow Christ's teachings as I understood them. I have tried to learn more of His word in order to better follow Him.
My two biggest struggles were cursing and smoking cigarettes. Prior to September 21 1997 I swore worse than Al Pacino in the movie Scarface, something I am shamed by to this day. It took some time and a lot of prayer before that monster was conquered. Smoking was a different monster altogether. Smoking almost cracked my Faith in Him. I smoked for 27 years, at the end I was smoking a pack and a half to two packs a day. I had some things to learn before I was able to successfully quit. The biggest one was to truly lean on Him, and to give Him my problem and let Him take the burden for me. Once I learned to do that and not rely on myself, quitting was easy. I prayed many times before and while I was quitting the nicotine habit. My Faith in Him grew exponentially during this time. You see, I had tried literally dozens of times to quit on my own and I was never able to. It was His help that enabled me to quit and for that I love Him dearly.
He has been a better Father to me than either of the 2 earthly fathers I've had. The State of Nebraska took me away from my biological parents at the age of 2. (From what I understand it was chronic neglect that led to this.) By the time I was 5 I had been in 5 different foster homes. I can only remember 3 of them. The 5th foster home, those people adopted me (and 2 brothers and a sister) all on the same day when I was 12. My adopted parents did things to us they never did to their own children, many of those things would have put them in jail for years if they did them today. My heavenly Father has given me the strength and courage to forgive both of my earthly fathers for how they treated me when I was young.
I'll pray for you Nwbie, I don't know exactly what your issues are, but He does and He can help.
